幸福在哪儿？

How has everyone been? Guess regular readers will know what I'm about to say.. Yeah, I miss blogging.

Do you guys realize the power we release when we have a strong feeling for something is so huge?
It is amazing how that feeling could end up distracting our mind to focus on only that one matter, the source of that strong feeling to occur.

Sometimes I like to think why such thing could happen; why can the feelings from heart distract our mind? Why does the connection feel so strong & unbreakable and there is nothing I, as the master, can do to stop or prevent it from happening? Or in short words, it's beyond my control.

I hate not being able to control or prevent unexpected ( as in bad ) situations from happening. When I could foresee the ending of it, and I could do nothing to fix the situation, I feel helpless.
I hate the fact that when I want something real bad, I have to achieve it. In any quickest way possible. But this is something else... This should not be achieved in a short time. The timing is too fast; the feeling is wrong.

What can I do to erase all the feeling I've felt? The short memories made? Why do I have to have that feeling now? I don't feel like worsen things...

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我不想在痛了。

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Hi. Some things have been going my way recently. To think about it all, it's so much to take in. If I flash back, this day will not have occurred in my mind.

I'm so confounded. Tangled. You name it. There has been much changes lately I can barely remember them all. Yeah my memory is that short. Dear God, whatever that is yet to come, I pray for strength and wisdom. I hope I'll have a clear mind and won't be emotional in making decisions _/\_