Sydney

How I wish I did write down my mixed up feelings when was about to leave hometown. Fear, doubts of the future caused me to shed tears 3 nights and days in a row. My last few days were packed with packing stuffs and last meetings with close peers and family. Each night before sleep my mind is full of questions only time can answer. What will I be? What things will happen? Can I make it to everything?

I've got wonderful friends and boyfriend back in my hometown. Will I find friends for life here? Will I be able to live each day of my dream like I imagined back then? Will things fall perfectly into place? Only time can tell.

 

3 days here have been spent shopping for daily necessities, stuffs I need. Truth be told, there aren't many brands available in Sydney. No TOPSHOP, FOREVER 21, Charles &Keith, Bershka, Pull&Bear, H&M, etc. The people here prefer local brands, though. Anyways, gotta go. Will report again soon!

Love me like a love song x

My favorite man <3

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I've been abandoning my blog for weeks. It's September...already. I'm creeping inside, nervous and anxiety overwhelm me every time I think about leaving. I've been distracting myself from that thought, and delay packing. It's no good. but I simply wish I could lie to reality... Why am I this scared of leaving hometown for a while? I've been saying the reason is not being able to see my loved ones every time I feel like. Maybe it's true.. But to think about it now, absence makes the heart grows fonder, no? Maybe I just fear they won't miss me so much like I will..or even..forget about me. Being 4286 miles apart from them definitely will feel like in hell at times. Longing for them yet can't reach them. Don't you think so?

But if I ponder a bit longer, I'll return to the starting point. Why am I going to leave? To pursue my studies. I don't know I've ever mentioned this or not, but studying overseas has been my dream for ages. Living 8 hours flight away from my parents, loved ones, and having no helpers like housemaid or driver at all....are the price I have to pay during the time. But I know, on the other side, living this way could make me grow up. At least more mature. It's gonna be worth it..and with the title and degree I'll achieve. I hope studying in Sydney will be an eye-opener as well as me answering the golden opportunity. I shall nail everything. Sadhu3x

Signed,

WinnyTeh.