Dedicate to my ♡s, each one of you.

As if one night wasn't enough, I shed tears for two nights in a row. Different reasons, same sensitivity.

There are times like these when I need to pour out all the burden weighed on me. Crying is not the best solution, I know, but it's the best relief. At least for me. Don't ask why, it's still the same old reason. Exactly like the saying says, "Big action comes big responsibility". I simply can't agree more.

It kinds of saddens me to know I still need people to worry about me, all the time. And that they still can't fully have faith on my action, support me. Seventeen years old is in a couple of days and look at what I did in the few last days of my sixteen. Truth be told, I'm upset, furious with myself as well, MORE than anyone else, you should know. Doubts and fears keep on crawling into me and there's none of my beloved to support my decision. Indeed, it's not a good one, or shall I say, worst of the worst ever.

But hey, who else if not myself to decide my life? Who else if not myself to carry the responsibilities of my actions? They've always been right all the time, my beloved ones. Sometimes, it's just me.. wanting to take the wrong path and yet they always are there to bring me back to the right track.

But this time, I need support. I've done things I know could harm me, but unlike previous times, I'm now willing to take the risk. Please understand. Life is not just about going on the right track.. going on the wrong track is a part of life as well, isn't it? All of us can only predict how this will end, later in the future. Which is why we try  the best to prevent the worst to happen. But it's only a foreseeing, it can still be changed. People change, don't they?

I want you guys to trust me.. have faith in my every action. Stop all the insults. Stop all the humiliating words. I can only listen to encouraging, motivating words, the others will be to no avail, trust me. Whenever I'm about to cross the limit, please tell me, wake me up! But when I need shoulders to cry on, will you guys be willing to lend yours? I love you guys, ALL of you, unexceptionally. So please, try to listen to the voice of my heart..


l o v e,
Teh. Winny

Sunday Morning ♡

I'm currently in the mood to blog :p
Know what first song I played this morning? Sunday Morning by Maroon 5 ♡ This song kinds of make me to feel spiritful to start the day ;)

Ah anyways, the birthday party I mentioned earlier.. is still gonna be held! but this time's gonna be different from any other parties I've ever made :) I'm exciteeeeeeed ! ah right I gotta go to survey the location now.. so ciao!

Have a blessed Sunday, people! :D

Not a very good February, maybe.

The trip with my  extended family was fun(ny). Turned out there was only one nephew of mine going, the rest probably had school examination around the corner. Believe it or not, less than a week after this trip, me and parents headed to Bangkok with cousin and husband and their friends.. from twelveth to fifteenth of February.
The tickets were purchased months ago , and at first I was planning to not coming. Since fate didn't allow, I had to leave. Geez I hate the term 'had to'. The major destination of the trip was to go praying. Well the minor ones were to go shopping, and of course enjoying the trip.

It's clear on Valentine's Day I couldn't be with ALL my beloved ones. I planned to spend the night with VOC-ers since I wouldn't be allowed to pass the night with him :/ I'm terribly sorry, H, I had to leave you on that loving day :(

Anyways, I've just returned home from watching his P2S1 badminton match. A true winner he is, although he didn't win the first place :) Why a true winner? Haven't been practicing for likely half a year and haven't lost his skills at all is an achievement already. He's struggled so much and was amazed he could reach this far. He might lose eight scores, but he has won from the inside, from himself. The silver medal is eventually his to have. How can I not be proud? ;) However, once again, I'm sorry for being so late :( the traffic jam was going nuts, sigh there shouldn't be any excuses allowed I know. How I wish I had left home earlier ;/

The semester and Final School exams are so around the corner. Two more weeks to insert to brain the whole three years' lessons of most subjects. Biology, Physics, Chemistry, Maths, ergh. Alright, kill me if I don't start SOOOOOONNN

Bye bye January, please be SPECIAL February ♡

January has come to an end. Time sure flies but I bet I had the most adventurous January ever ; )
The VOC inauguration, Pantai Labu Social Service with almost other 100 Sutomo1 students, the first Pindapatta experience, and many more! I'm hoping the next 11 months of 2011 will be the same awesome :)

Tonight is the 30th day according to the Lunar Calendar and tomorrow will be the Lunar New Year :) Me and family will be leaving in approximately 16 hours and I hope all of us can arrive and return back to Medan safe and sound, with joy and excitement overwhelming :D

So following the tradition, tonight my family (and of course most other families) will be having so-called reunion dinner.I think my family is not very excited because our family is incomplete..yes without grandma now around : / I can't bear to recall last year's Lunar New Year, the whole merry celebration.. I simply wish Gradma could be with us later this night, I hope she will.. :')

Anyway, I'm going to abandon my blog (again) for another week and I wish all of you and myself happy holidays! Happy Lunar New Year as well for those who celebrate :D may this Rabbit Year brings more luck, experience, and wisdom : )


l o v e,
Teh. Winny ♡