Pre-Eclipse

GOOOOOSH does anyody notice it's 29th ALREADY?!?
Which means..
1. Tomorrow will be the Premier of Eclipse. *SCREAMM*, and
2. Third, which also the last, year of Senior High will start in 9 days. =p


Planning to watch Eclipse with Sally Cc, and my sister. :) Sally Cc is soooooo excited, she texted my sister asking us to bring trumpets along tomorrow..XP She's like a HUGE fan of Edward, the prove is in her blog :P


So sooooooo..which movie should I watch tonight? ;)

Dear my SuperDad

"I've never given much thought to how I would die...

but to die in the place of someone I love..seems like a good way to go."
-Bella Swan.

Things happened these few weeks of holiday had caused me to ponder a lot..which is, I think, good. I have not been using much of my brain's ability for quite some time, and unlike what I used to think, thinking about studies is easier than about life problems.

Dad..has often been the one to make me conscious of all those. His unreasonable scoldings, angers, protection, and love towards me are his ways of bringing me up. Although, to tell to truth, I dislike them. At good times, he showers me with unconditional love, give me almost everything that I wish for, and make me believe that nothing impossible for me to reach. But in return, he puts high expectations on me. Not only in education, but in everyday life's matters. High risks, high returns..I know. But I can't stand disappointing him anymore. The stern scoldings, harsh words, when my work was nothing up to his expectations.

They are just very high, I can tell. It's not like they're impossible, but I just need to learn first step by step. I'm not born having all the requirements of a wonder girl. Yeah, I aim to be one, I always do. But now, I'm not even close to it, Daddy, not yet.

TIME. That's what I lack..but keep wasting. To make the full use of it, and my mind, that's what I'm aiming for.
I promise you..someday, someway, I will be the way I should be. And by that time, I hope you will still walk with your head up, chin high, when telling people I am your daughter. Just like the way I am now when I mention to anybody about you.

new blog template+Eclipse

I have just done some editing on my blog template and background. How does it look ? :D
I have never customized my own blog looks before, and I'm glad this one turns out good :p

Ah I went to watch A-Team with mommy, daddy and Ocie just now (yeah she's back alr :P). It's a worth-watching especially those who love not-too-serious action movies :)

ONE GOOD NEWS to share recently is another upcoming Twilight Saga series : Eclipse. :DD
I'm soooooo looking forward to it, and I hope it is worth-waiting ;) ohwells I've read the synopsis and it is exciting..now it just depends on the newbie movie director, David Slade.

I'm going to rewatch Twilight or New Moon now..just to refresh my memory before Eclipse :p

meltinggg

When Sanrio marries Dr. Martens..








Goshhh how great is that? Now I'm thinking if only I did not buy a pair of Dr Martens last winter, now I will definitely ask for one of these! ><
But to think that the one I've bought has now been a decoration in my bedroom.. I will just save my money. It's quite uncomfortable to wear such boots in Medan. I mean, should I wear it to where? Sun Plaza? Huff
Howeverrr, they are totally cute! Sigh now I wish Indonesia has 3 seasons (Winter excluded) :(


Besides this good news for the Sanrio+Dr Marten fans, I have another good news for myself. I just realized that tomorrow will be the mayoral general election in Medan. Which means, tomorrow is a public holiday here and I won't have to go to miss anita's in the (very) early morning :p I actually enjoy her lesson very much.. but when it comes to homework, which of course I haven't done until now, I feel spiritless :( I guess I've had too much of lazy times on this holidays. My brain seems to have holidays as well that when I'm forced to think about homework and its species, I feel tired.. yea, GEEZ


Oh wells I shall continue watching Prince's Hours (again) :) it's getting exciting! Wahoooo!

HIP HIP HURRAY

VOCers are finally back! We first reunited at Robin's birthday dinner yesterday, and they all seemed to have regained their energy after a long exhausting trip. The Redangs had not stopped talking and the non-Redangs (me included) seemed to hurry catch up with things. HAHA there are TONS of stories, and we will catch up again tomorrow YEAY :p

I've been spending days and nights with DvDs these 3 days since I need to look after home in charge of grandma who was hospitalised. But no worries, she's going home tomorrow and all members of my family feel so grateful she is doing okay already :) Oh Thank You so much Buddha. Amithofo :D

In just 2 weeks Eclipse will be released! gawddd I can't waiiiiiiiiiiiitttttt. But when I imagine the will-be super-duper-long queue I think it's better to just wait for the DvD. sigh I hate the queue :(

Oh yes, I've never had interest in football, not the last time I remembered. But FIFA World Cup draws my attention (and the world too!) and I've watched two games POR-CD ended in 0-0, and just now ESP-SUI 0-1. Spain must be really down now, but anyway, Great job Switzerland! :D

Guess I'll continue watching Prince's Hours now. Yeah, I'm into not-so-new movies recently :p


PS, Karate Kid I'm coming. Wahoooooooooo X)

Oh please

Dear Readers,

I've just noticed that the visit number has increased for like 30 something in two nights. Well, I've always thought I've been writing to myself, but this time when I feel like someone's been visiting..I feel good. So Thank you :)

I've been intending to share some pictures about my trip to Pantai Cermin, but I guess I'll do that later 'cause there's been some other things bothering me lately..

I've currently into Bella and Edward..I don't know why. I've re-watched Twilight and New Moon this week which means I've watched each of them twice up till now. Their love makes me curious..I can never make the prediction easily like how the story would go. Well, I've not been reading any of Meyer's book about the series, and I enjoy keeping the predictions to myself whilst watching them :)

Besides all of the great things on holidays, there's been some problems that kind of distract my joy lately. I've been planning on having a great trip this end of June..but guess some things are not supportive. There has been many obstacles that seem to make any of it impossible. It's actually not a huge problem for the trip to be canceled.. but I just hope the obstacles can be soon wiped off. I don't expect any kind of these things to approach me especially on my free days. So please Buddha, I know I've been saying this over and over, make her fine..give her strength. I'm begging You ;( sadhu3x

Pantai Cermin I'm cominggg

BOOOOOOO I'M GOING :D

Mom said yes and dad said up to you. Well, actually dad's "up to you" doesn't really mean that he allows me.. but anyway, he said I'm nearly a grown-up and I can think by myself. I give him a thousand reasons not to worry too much, and of course I WILL take care of myself! besides, my maid is coming with me, many of the students will bring theirs too tomorrow. At least that will make my daddy feel less-worried, someone's gonna look after when something's not right :P

I totally hope tomorrow will be sunny! not just the day but also my mood. sometimes I just can't control my own mood and that I ruin the day I'm actually looking forward to. GEE tomorrow isn't gonna happen that way! SO yes, I need to have a fuullll rest tonight and let tomorrow be another memorable history (;

NIGHTY NIGHT WORLD!

wishes waiting to be granted

First Day was fine. I only did input 2 books of data which was requested by mom. I went home right after finished inputting as I had to attend my piano lesson in the evening. Since I still got one and a half hour before the lesson, and both of my hands felt so numb, I decided to take a short nap. But guess what, it wasn't 'short'.. unless you call a 2-hour sleep a short nap. I hurried to the bathroom to fresh myself, changed clothes, then went straight to the lesson. sigh I was 40 minutes late and I only have 20 minutes left before the lesson ended =.=

Today was the second day. Although I'd set 2 alarms to wake me up, I still woke up (very) late. Well, it was reasonable as I watched Valentine's Day until 1 and went to bed at 2 a.m :q. So I went to the office at 4 pm since daddy said he would be going out and would call me when he returned to the office. I've got nothing to do today except observing how Dad's 'right-hand' discussed things with Dad. I promise myself not to be late tomorrow as dad asked me to help one of the employers tomorrow :)

anyways, I've just bought around sixteen DVDs recently. Four of them are series movies. I know it was quite a number but I will soon finish watching all of them :P OHYES I've just registered myself to a Basic Class of Photography :D The lesson consists of 8 meetings and I will have two each week. 20% will be about the theory and 80% will be the practical :) I'm sooo excited but nervous as well. I will be going there by myself and I'm afraid that I will be the only newbie in photography. Aih I should start reading the manual book of EOS 550D soon as the first step (;

Remember I wrote about the Pajang's family? They're holding a gathering this Thursday at Pantai Cermin. And my lovely teacher kept asking me to join them (around 30 students). She knows it won't be easy to have the permission but she said she was really hoping I would be there, as she had not seen me for so long ;) well it's true. Since I entered senior high school, life has turned me into a busy-bee every day. I had only caught up twice with her and others. And I miss how they used to fill my days every day back then in junior-high (; which is why I NEED to attend this reunion, but then daddy has always been the obstacle :( he said he would think for 2-3 days before he answered me. well, tomorrow is the deadline, and I'm getting more terrified each day thinking what if he doesn't approve? sigh I really hope I could be there, Daddy. =s

Medan has been raining heavily like every night which is very worrying. The bolts which followed the rain have always frightened me. GEZ

Oh yes! I forgot to mention that many of the VOC-ers are now having a memorable trip in Redang ;D they started their journey on 6th of June and now they have reached the wonderful Redang Island. I bet all of them are enjoying every minute of the time they are together :P FYI, they have planned this trip for like 10 months ago and they all were looking forward to this day ever since. Too bad I wasn't allowed to join them, but then I'm Happy for them :D

Going to continue watching Dvd :p will blog again tomorrow!


I shall make it!

amazed

blogging was in my To-Do list but then I seem to have too many things I would like to share and don't know where to start.

Exam was fine. I hope I did good enough. By 'good enough' I mean I could fulfill the requirements to stay at the plus class. I SHOULD stay there- I've got too comfortable with the environment and friends- I HAVE TO. (:

It's true that LIFE FEELS SWEETER ON HOLIDAYS, don't you think? I've got the whole time to do what I want to, without having to feel guilty. Since the first day of the exam, I'd got my mind on this one-month break and the tons of plans to do. I kept on pushing myself to do the best I could as NO REGRETS are expected on holidays. (Although now I still have a little guilt in me and (again) cursed myself for not being discipline to revise all subjects far before exam.) But when I reached the end of the exam and went home, all my plans seemed to fade one by one. Gee I guessed I was just tooooooo excited that I got confused on which one to do first :P

Talking about plans, I'm in the middle of confusion whether to take photography and cloth-designing classes or not. I actually am interested with both of them, but I'm afraid that they will turn out not like what I expect. Photography class is very much considered as I begin to show some enthusiasm towards it recently. But, in cloth-designing, there are still aspects I need to consider carefully before I finally make the decision. Or else I'm afraid it would not have a happy ending; and I don't want to waste such big sum of money on that.

Oh Yes, I forgot to mention about my CANON EOS 550D ♥
I had it before exam. And since daddy paid it for me first, I asked for his account number so I could transfer such amount of money to him. Guess what, HE LAUGHED AT ME. I said I was really planning to buy it with my own pocket money, then he answered if I was serious then I should actually go to the office to work with him, not necessarily transferring any money to him. Then I thought it was not a bad idea too as I could gain new experience on this holiday, and make use of this opportunity to train myself. Tomorrow will be the first day I take part in Dad's job. I know it won't be easy but it's the only way I could help daddy and I hope I don't spoil. :)

Oh yes, I think my health is in trouble recently. Seems like all the pain I hold during exam are now showing themselves one by one. I've had one migraine, dizziness, days with lack of sleep, and now, stomachache. Still thankful they didn't appear during exam.

Talking about life.. It has given me so many surprises in just these few days of holidays. I think I've grown more mature.. and blessed. Suddenly all my positive thoughts- which I think have just returned from a long holiday -began to fill me again. I feel that I am now more capable of handling things around me and not taking every single thing people say as serious as before. I've given myself a time to relax my mind and see life in a different perception. Seriously, I didn't even dare to imagine things will turn out like they are now. But as I'm feeling more comfortable, I begin to worry that they will all disappear without my notice.. again. But since I've hardly gained the ability of letting go, I believe this time and many other times in the future I would be able to make it again, if that's what it takes. So Yeah, I'm not going to allow myself to live in regrets, and for being so fragile anymore. Especially not for that particular reason. (:




I should be going to the dreamland soon. Oh I hope I will do great on my first day :)

xoxoxoxo