To me, strengths and weaknesses are part of a person, also form a person. So when I think I lose one of my greatest - or shall I say proudest - strength, I instantly feel crap. I would start thinking of how disappointing I will be to my proud mental and financial sponsors ( mom and dad and close friends), and the more I go into that the more I build the pressure...for myself.
During this point of time I usually will attempt to seek solutions if not from my own ideas, from those I think might be helpful. Once in a while, I try to simply let loose of control by underestimating the situation. Trying to zoom out from my position to find I am merely in a piece in the big puzzle. This rule would repeat itself at times of desperate moment and one kind listener is all I need as the catalyst to the healing.
However, this other thing bugging me is no-brainer. In the sense that logic can't stand alone, if to get rid of it. This is probably one of the reasons why some people, me including, are not a fan of associating feelings when mingling, and may seem more like defending, holding, inside. The fear of things not going to end in our favour is probably more like why. No solution yet, no idea how the path will look like. But I'll stay around the corner of the field, just in time when the game needs a little twist.
As for now, I aim to strive for excellence in kicking final's *ss!
and as long as we keep believing, there is hope. xx
cheers,
littlemissteh
