Treat me right, 2011

Hello again!
Can you believe it's that time of the year already? 2011 will soon come to an end!

How has 2011 treated you? ;)
It has been treating me awesomely good! I'm utterly grateful nothing horrible has happened throughout the year! Can't thank the Buddha enough for the blessings to me and family.


These 345 days I proudly say I have not just grown older, but more mature. Coming here, far away from home is truly an eye-opener. I am able to not cling to the past, instead live in the present, aim for the future.

Some things still need to be fixed, though.
Since I used to live on my own for 4 years, now I have to adapt to living with my sisters.
I didn't know living by my own could change my attitude so much, for real. For those 4 years, I needn't think about the others. I woke up by myself, went home from school by myself, played by myself, ate sometimes by myself, and finally slept by myself. The world revolves around me only.

But it's different now. The world just doesn't revolve around me only anymore.
I woke up with sister by my side. Dinner sometimes with them. Shared stories with them. Slept with a sister.



How does it differ, you ask?
Since I had been living like I am the only child, I became more selfish. It just occurred spontaneously, unexpected. All I had to do was to mind my own business. Buy my own things. Play by my own. But that attitude should not be carried here. Not if I live with my family. True, not?

Apart from that lesson, this year has taught me many many many others. I hope the same goes to you guys too! Have a fabulous closing of the year everyone! Merry early Christmas! Enjoy the festive season of the year :D

Beyond limits

Hi. Foundi life's treatin me very goooood.
After presenting the three hellish subjects in a week, I feel much much much relieved.
I did pretty well, if I am to give myself a comment. At least, I did my best.

English was a total satisfaction. A star man! Like for real?! Well I did not achieve it easily. Hard work and effort for 4 or 5 whole days, racking my brain for the most sensible summary of the article.
Econs was great. Presenting with a cooperative partner from Medan! A as a result, 'cause the teacher has never given more than that. He thinks A is the highest score. So yeah .... :)

Legal was...... disaster, at first. Can you imagine when you only have 4 days left before the D-day, and you only accept prefect result, yet you have not started at all?! I was freaaaaaaaaaaking out. Realizing I had that small amount of time to work on it simply freaked me out. I tried to understand the question first, then thought of how to start. The reference material was half a lecture note and some others from Supplementary Materials. I simply couldn't calm myself down. I thought I had too much work from the other two presentations and I was so tired when it came to Legal's. I panicked, I cried hysterically. Thinking how it was so hard for me to cope to the stressful foundation life. I had almost given up. Until I reminded myself the reason I came here. I've come this far and there's no way back. With the help of my eldest sister and my friend, I managed to eventually work it out.
A minus was a suitable result, I think. The teacher has never given A to anyone yet, so far. He said mine was a little bit less to get an A. Can't be happier.


Overall, through the presentations, I've learned to reach beyond my limits. Who knows this little young lady who has never done a solo presentation can achieve this satisfying result with 3 consecutive presentations in a week? Well done, little young lady! ;)

Patience is (NOT) virtue

Dear diary,
I miss home too much. Feels like everyone is going back home for holidays and spend 2 or 3 months for it.

While in my case... I have to wait til next June, at least.
Some of my classmates are not even away from hometown for half a year, yet going to spend 2 months (at the most) in Medan from this December? UNFAIR.
Yeah of course I've had 5 months of holidays before coming here BUT I was almost getting sick of it back then but I desperately need it for next month!
Of course I'm gonna have holidays this December, for two weeks.
Since coming here, I need to struggle for 9 months first before I can go back for 1 month at the most(!) next June. How UNFAIR is that?!


What's more unfair is most of my indo peers here are going back to their hometown as well! *envytothemax* One last thing is that there will be VOC reunion in the coming JANUARY!

OK SHOOT ME NOW.

hot chocolate and mint: Words

hot chocolate and mint: Words: I noticed something today. That some people, enjoy killing other people's dreams, or visions. Although unintentionally, they actually do through their very few words and innocent faces. We shouldn't sweat the small things, but small words, we should. Words carry real meanings, hence the presence of dictionaries. Never think that words are just words. They really affect one's world.

And words can also cure. They can be the birth of life-impacting innovations, of big changes for the world. The impossible and possible happen from a mindset. And mindsets, are developed through the words we speak and we tell to ourselves. When others speak about impossibility, I prefer closing my ears. When I believe, I believe. Have faith, friends..:)

Undercover

Dear diary,
Today I realized in life I can't always meet people who are doing right things. Sometimes others just want to cross out from their comfort zone, have a once-in-a-lifetime experience. Although I doubt it only happens once.

Today I also found out feelings are not to be played with. Sometimes, just sometimes, I try to make myself fall in love when in fact I know it's not right. If you force yourself to fall, it's not love, is it?
Somehow I just hope I am the master of my feeling so I can command it. Not another way round.


I really wish right now there isn't anything bothering me with my studies. 'cos I've traveled this far, made life-changing decisions, not for nothing. FOCUS and PROCRASTINATION has always been my biggest enemies. Sigh I know if I keep on pushing myself, a part of me is just way too rebellion to listen. But...this is what I hope. Motivation is all I need. Fingers crossed x


PS, Just realized I've written 190 posts so far and had 19 followers!

Sydney, I'm quite in love

Hi, I'm tired.
I love weekends most for I can have fun without feeling guilty. I know right, I don't come here just to have fun...it's just...I need one or two weekends between weekdays. :(
 Next week I'm gonna present 3 times on 3 different subjects. I am quite a perfectionist in some cases. I don't like things that are well planned become disorder. Therefore, I am trying to prepare the best I can.

I'm sure I've written that foundi life is hard. In terms of friendship, though, I find a number of supportive as well as encouraging friends. Most of my close ones are from Indonesia. Ranging from one year younger to one year older than I. Somehow there is still something missing. I need to find out what exactly it is.

Yesterday was a heart throbbing. After all this time, the words finally came out. I didn't know how to react, or to feel from that moment onwards..It was surprising, touching, yet unbelievable. How long is it gonna last? Is it only temporary emotional speak out? 4 years to find out.

dear diary,

I'm so stressed out. November is a seriously busy month. I've got 3 presentations, all in one week. Need to do research and group work for a report on the topic: magazine advertising. Endless maths exercises. Blankness in economics..and legal..and maths sometimes. Damn what did I learn in maths back then how can I forget everything?!


Seriously I have a hard time organizing my life timetable. When to study, when to relax, when to shop. And my brain power a.k.a super short-term memory isn't helping at all! Duh please gimme strength to cope with everything, Buddha. I pray to You. Sadhu3x

Different zone

Today was fun.

Introducing... foundi friends!

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I miss blogging

I really do.
Blogging is my remedy because every time I finish writing a post I have some relieved or grateful(?) feeling. Don't ask me why I just do. Therefore I love putting effort in some posts to impress no one but myself.
The thing with blogging is that.. I often find it hard to open the blog website and log in and create a post. Maybe I'm too lazy or I always want each post to be special, meaningful.. so that when I look back I know exactly what I'm talking about. And it takes time. I just don't have much of it these days.

I have a super round face. Tell me why?

Life's up to par recently. Getting closer with classmates and stressed out my endless assignments. Enjoying foundi life so much, though, with all the freedom I have here :)




I'm glad I don't get so upset or sad like I did last time. In this case, I prefer not to point out the issue. Although there are missing pieces, I'm sure some day it can be complete, again. By that time, don't let them be found on the wrong hand, please God?

xoxo

Sister love

You say

Hi diary,
I blog again today.


After writing a post yesterday I feel so much better as in term.. relieved. I've been keeping that matter to only my closest ones and not to try to even mention about it with them. But now you know. Now everyone who reads this e-diary know. One note for each one of you, if you are regularly reading this page for the sake of talking and gossiping: Thank You.


Without you guys, there would be probably less people who know Winny Teh exists. Without each session of gossiping, Winny Teh will not get more fame, eh? So, thanks for your time and energy to publicize me. Please talk about good things :p


Okay I did not sign in just to talk about that.
So today was an unusual day. I got so much information and questions about everything. The most stressful one would be about my studies (yeah what else). Next month is sure gonna be a real hardcore. Now that is real test.

Justin Bieber - Mistletoe

xoxo

Save your words

Dear diary,



This is gonna be a quick update to show that I'm still alive. (lol jk) I've been staying in this Opera town for a month now. Things gradually begin to change..and have changed. My one and only relationship so far is hopeless to end with happily ever after. It's 'the End' before I even realize it is. I couldn't see it coming..but well what can I do if I could? If I were not here, I knew I would have fought for silly things like I used to do. Previously in hometown, my world revolves around this and that only. Here, it's these and those. I know my decision is never gonna be wrong. Well I certainly have found one satisfying result now. Seriously I don't know how to describe my gratefulness for being able to further my studies overseas. It's another dream comes true.


Apart from the zillion great things about being thousands miles away from hometown, I am suffering here. I miss parents, the culinary in my hometown, my bestest friends other million things which bring me comfort. The education here is hardly close to the word easy. Could never slack for even a day like I used to do everyday. Every subject racks the content of my brain especially Economics ( a total blank!) and Legal Studies ( what the hell heaven)



I guess that's it for now. Gotta go back to write another econs story! ciao

Sydney

How I wish I did write down my mixed up feelings when was about to leave hometown. Fear, doubts of the future caused me to shed tears 3 nights and days in a row. My last few days were packed with packing stuffs and last meetings with close peers and family. Each night before sleep my mind is full of questions only time can answer. What will I be? What things will happen? Can I make it to everything?

I've got wonderful friends and boyfriend back in my hometown. Will I find friends for life here? Will I be able to live each day of my dream like I imagined back then? Will things fall perfectly into place? Only time can tell.

 

3 days here have been spent shopping for daily necessities, stuffs I need. Truth be told, there aren't many brands available in Sydney. No TOPSHOP, FOREVER 21, Charles &Keith, Bershka, Pull&Bear, H&M, etc. The people here prefer local brands, though. Anyways, gotta go. Will report again soon!

Love me like a love song x

My favorite man <3

If I

I've been abandoning my blog for weeks. It's September...already. I'm creeping inside, nervous and anxiety overwhelm me every time I think about leaving. I've been distracting myself from that thought, and delay packing. It's no good. but I simply wish I could lie to reality... Why am I this scared of leaving hometown for a while? I've been saying the reason is not being able to see my loved ones every time I feel like. Maybe it's true.. But to think about it now, absence makes the heart grows fonder, no? Maybe I just fear they won't miss me so much like I will..or even..forget about me. Being 4286 miles apart from them definitely will feel like in hell at times. Longing for them yet can't reach them. Don't you think so?

But if I ponder a bit longer, I'll return to the starting point. Why am I going to leave? To pursue my studies. I don't know I've ever mentioned this or not, but studying overseas has been my dream for ages. Living 8 hours flight away from my parents, loved ones, and having no helpers like housemaid or driver at all....are the price I have to pay during the time. But I know, on the other side, living this way could make me grow up. At least more mature. It's gonna be worth it..and with the title and degree I'll achieve. I hope studying in Sydney will be an eye-opener as well as me answering the golden opportunity. I shall nail everything. Sadhu3x

Signed,

WinnyTeh.

Took a personality quiz here:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx



My Result 


Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

So trueeeee, Indeed!

Love is not that blind

Once upon a love..

you came and we live happily ever after.

Signed,

WinnyTeh