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I've been abandoning my blog for weeks. It's September...already. I'm creeping inside, nervous and anxiety overwhelm me every time I think about leaving. I've been distracting myself from that thought, and delay packing. It's no good. but I simply wish I could lie to reality... Why am I this scared of leaving hometown for a while? I've been saying the reason is not being able to see my loved ones every time I feel like. Maybe it's true.. But to think about it now, absence makes the heart grows fonder, no? Maybe I just fear they won't miss me so much like I will..or even..forget about me. Being 4286 miles apart from them definitely will feel like in hell at times. Longing for them yet can't reach them. Don't you think so?

But if I ponder a bit longer, I'll return to the starting point. Why am I going to leave? To pursue my studies. I don't know I've ever mentioned this or not, but studying overseas has been my dream for ages. Living 8 hours flight away from my parents, loved ones, and having no helpers like housemaid or driver at all....are the price I have to pay during the time. But I know, on the other side, living this way could make me grow up. At least more mature. It's gonna be worth it..and with the title and degree I'll achieve. I hope studying in Sydney will be an eye-opener as well as me answering the golden opportunity. I shall nail everything. Sadhu3x

Signed,

WinnyTeh.