Written in the sand

I'm finally back. After eight and a half months living a slightly different life 4000 miles away. Excited? Don't even know.

It feels as though the city hasn't changed. Like I've just been back from a vacation and not leaving for more than a month. The routine, the custom, the crowd are exactly as what I pictured in mind. Or at least those are what I found til now.

Talking about my life in sydney, foundation year is finally over.  A close friend of mine who came from Hong Kong, decided to pursue her studies in another city but Sydney. So we (read: the Indos) had to say our goodbyes and spent the last few days as if we're never gonna meet again. At least that's what I kept in mind. Funny how sometimes we could only cherish the moment when we know they might never come again. She's been a very lovely and caring girl all this time. Everything would be more awkwardly quiet without her from now on haha I really hope she could find the place that suits her and finally settle down. Another ending, yet another beginning. Uni life is about to start in a month's time. They say it's scary and hard and no-kidding. Foundation year is already pushing me off my limits and I wonder how uni will do me. Finals last week was killing me I swear. I literally worked my ass off the first 3 monstah subjects: econs, legal, maths. That was probably the hardest I've ever worked for an exam. I tried my best though, and still crossing fingers for the results x

Right now, in my hometown, I wish things would fall into place. I would catch up with friends, meet up with teachers, eat, spend, play, have fun all the time! ;) I really don't wish to encounter any stupid feeling I brought whilst leaving hometown last year. That's my wish for this holidays. xoxo

If I

I've been abandoning my blog for weeks. It's September...already. I'm creeping inside, nervous and anxiety overwhelm me every time I think about leaving. I've been distracting myself from that thought, and delay packing. It's no good. but I simply wish I could lie to reality... Why am I this scared of leaving hometown for a while? I've been saying the reason is not being able to see my loved ones every time I feel like. Maybe it's true.. But to think about it now, absence makes the heart grows fonder, no? Maybe I just fear they won't miss me so much like I will..or even..forget about me. Being 4286 miles apart from them definitely will feel like in hell at times. Longing for them yet can't reach them. Don't you think so?

But if I ponder a bit longer, I'll return to the starting point. Why am I going to leave? To pursue my studies. I don't know I've ever mentioned this or not, but studying overseas has been my dream for ages. Living 8 hours flight away from my parents, loved ones, and having no helpers like housemaid or driver at all....are the price I have to pay during the time. But I know, on the other side, living this way could make me grow up. At least more mature. It's gonna be worth it..and with the title and degree I'll achieve. I hope studying in Sydney will be an eye-opener as well as me answering the golden opportunity. I shall nail everything. Sadhu3x

Signed,

WinnyTeh.

Someday

I know I haven't blogged for almost two weeks. I didn't feel like to. There has been something occupying my mind lately. No it's not about education, or relationship, but more about family..my Dad precisely.

It's kind of saddens me the problem I have with my Dad lately. Moreover I'm leaving in 33 days. Yeah the date is set. But slightly on the other hand, this matter makes me ponder a lot, about me growing up. Of course a problem is not a good thing, but besides trying to solve it on my way, at the moment I'm just trying to take the positive of it. Nothing much as a positive, besides letting me to manage matters myself, and more like a training to get used to living far away from parents. It's positive now, isn't it?

However, deep inside my heart I'm still heartbroken. I've always considered my family's response to my actions. But probably not always do what they say. It is not my desire to be against dad. Although that action of mine said the other way. Sigh Dad is just way too protective to his daughters. Since I'm the only daughter living with him for the past 4 years, the whole protection is for me. Don't know I should be glad or not.

I don't know how many times I've stated this, anywhere, but I'm the adventurous type of person, just so you know. I can never sit still doing a same thing monotonously. (unless it's an entertainment) I like to experience different new things, learn various languages, or musical instruments, basically anything of skills! I want to fall, and get up, and fall again, get up again. But I can only do all those things with the support of my surroundings..my loved ones. If they are not there for me whenever I want them to be, I'll feel this life is not worth living. Mind my depression, but it has ever crossed my mind countless times in this year..ever since I no longer have the only person in this world to love me unconditionally....my Grandma.

On one hand, I'm not fully prepared to leave my hometown, where life must be easier on me, with helpers and parents. But on the other hand, I just can't wait to prove to my parents, and my family, and Grandma, that I, Winny Teh, their loving daughter, sister and granddaughter, is no longer a spoiled, useless, not-worth-to-trust little brat. Yeah 'someday' is coming closer.

“When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered – rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how ’bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love – a lot. Major in philosophy ’cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.” 

Who Says

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Today is not a good day. Recent thought: It is probably destined that I study overseas. In fact, it's the only way to prove I'm mature enough to live apart from Mom and Dad. I don't wanna be the 'youngest and never-grow-up' forever.

Signed,

Teh,Winny.

Harry Potter!!!!!

 most delicious ice-cream :9

 Seaweed Tei nyumz

Had lunch at Mie ayam Kumago @Sun Plaza, continued to ACE, Hypermart and Gramedia :) All accompanied by boyfie :3 

Btw, I'm gonna watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 in 3D tomorrow. UBER EXCITEDDD! Ok mind me please, FYI, tomorrow is the premier of the movie in Indonesia. For those outside Indonesia may have enjoyed this final journey of the phenomenal movie. And those who stay in Indonesia can only start enjoying tomorrow. 14 days after the real Premier! How late you say? I KNOW RIGHT?! 

Signed, 

WinnyTeh.

Make Every Second Count

So it's July. It's 22nd. It's one month and plus til the day I'll embark on a new life journey in Sydney. Isn't time ticking way too fast? Or because I'm on holidays and I am too carefree? But it's impossible, yet possible! It feels like last month the time I finished my Final National exam. It feels like last month I just graduated from high  school. So it's supposed to be 4 more months. not bloody ONE!

Time flies, no kidding. I've seen around 10 of my friends gone to further their studies in different cities. Some overseas, some still domestic. Having less and lesser time to live in Medan terrifies me, yet on some occasions, comforts me. Terrifying because I'm gonna leave my bittersweet hometown for (at least) half a year before I could be back here again. My whole life I've never lived a month apart from Medan. Maybe I'm being exaggerating but true it's what I feel. Comforting because I'll be living away from my parents. Actually it's not truly comforting. It's more like, exciting. It's a whole new life experience indeed! Living away from my parents? I think if the reason is not due to better education, my parents would never ever let me live so far away. Well although I'll still be there with my two sisters.

Pretty scary now? Oh and I'm beginning to learn that I won't be able to depend too much on my two sisters. They have their own matters to do, of course. And I've always wanted to be an independent woman. So I can say, it's my chance. I, myself, am not sure how I'm gonna work everything out.But since it's my childhood dream to study in an English-speaking country, I'm pretty sure I'll find a way.

From now, I hope ( no more promises) I'll update this blog as often as I want (yes it depends on my mood!)
It'll be so much fun if by the time I leave my hometown, and I miss it so much I couldn't help, I can re-read my posts and... be overwhelmed with the atmosphere. Right now as I'm typing this, I can feel my almost-teary eyes, so let alone when I'm already there.

Make Every Second Count. As I'm still here, I hope for the next one month I'll do things I've always wanted to do. Carrying no regrets and burdens as I leave. Rather than lazying and doing nothing special every day, I shall (and have to!) move my ass off bed more early in the morning and get back to bed more early at night.
Fingers crossed! xx

PS, I'm worrying a bit too much about LDR lately ;(


Teh, Winny.

I'm a dream

I tried to blog from iPhone last time using BlogWriter or something and guessed what? After typing around 500 words (yes that much! and thumb-typing!) I wanted to check a word on the dictionary application and when I returned to BlogWriter, THEY'RE GONE. 500 words were not saved! Stupid application grrrr. My thumb started feeling numb afterward.. bummer.

Another suck incident happened was last night, when a COCKROACH out of the blue appeared on my sister's bed. I was just about to sleep, I've turned off the light and I saw something moving. My gawd I nearly kissed it -__- I tried to get rid of it but it kept on escaping. Finally I draw lines with that cockroach-and-ants-remover chalk and went to sleep. So today I asked my housemaid to change the bed cover and to search for the cockroach. After searching every corner and place ( every!) in my room, it turned out to be nowhere. Mom and dad said I was probably dreaming last night .__. It's impossible! I even had goosebumps because of the dancing cockroach! OHMY

Lately I've been reaaaaaaaaally busy with SEALNet. I'm going to tell everything about it later. SEALNet is my everyday life now. It's like going to school! haha I have to meet my SEALNet friends literally everyday! Anyway, tomorrow will be our first outreach to Panti Asuhan Pelita Kasih. We're gonna teach them about hygiene and sanitation! I hope they will welcome us :)

I also hope I can blog everyday. At least a post to describe my day.. yeah I shall start doing that! :D

Teh, Winny.

Sunday Morning ♡

I'm currently in the mood to blog :p
Know what first song I played this morning? Sunday Morning by Maroon 5 ♡ This song kinds of make me to feel spiritful to start the day ;)

Ah anyways, the birthday party I mentioned earlier.. is still gonna be held! but this time's gonna be different from any other parties I've ever made :) I'm exciteeeeeeed ! ah right I gotta go to survey the location now.. so ciao!

Have a blessed Sunday, people! :D

I've missed blogging.

Eighteen days without a single post. Since I'm about to have holidays, I can't be more excited for my first trip with the whole family :) Get to play around with all nieces and nephews, I'm looking forward to the fun!
This will actually be my first time not being in Medan during the first few days of Lunar New Year. How I wish my two lovelies can come along as well, too bad they're too far : /
 So some of exciting views and happenings..

Pantai Labu Social Service

 Dearest school

 Early birthday gift from Alvinna <3

 totoys.ians

 two lovelies

It appeared that after uploading the photos I've rotated didn't appear as seen. So please mind some of them :p

So by the way, this whole party thing is surely gonna kept me occupied until next month. At first, I didn't plan on another party since I don't think being seventeen is somewhat special, unlike sixteen. Considering many other aspects, I'm now planning to throw one this year. I'm also trying my best to be a good party planner, and if only Mom would cooperate with me, it'll be much easier :'/

Anyway, everything is still in plan. There are still chances it might be canceled or anything. I can just have my fingers crossed for my upcoming...special day.

Pre-Eclipse

GOOOOOSH does anyody notice it's 29th ALREADY?!?
Which means..
1. Tomorrow will be the Premier of Eclipse. *SCREAMM*, and
2. Third, which also the last, year of Senior High will start in 9 days. =p


Planning to watch Eclipse with Sally Cc, and my sister. :) Sally Cc is soooooo excited, she texted my sister asking us to bring trumpets along tomorrow..XP She's like a HUGE fan of Edward, the prove is in her blog :P


So sooooooo..which movie should I watch tonight? ;)

new blog template+Eclipse

I have just done some editing on my blog template and background. How does it look ? :D
I have never customized my own blog looks before, and I'm glad this one turns out good :p

Ah I went to watch A-Team with mommy, daddy and Ocie just now (yeah she's back alr :P). It's a worth-watching especially those who love not-too-serious action movies :)

ONE GOOD NEWS to share recently is another upcoming Twilight Saga series : Eclipse. :DD
I'm soooooo looking forward to it, and I hope it is worth-waiting ;) ohwells I've read the synopsis and it is exciting..now it just depends on the newbie movie director, David Slade.

I'm going to rewatch Twilight or New Moon now..just to refresh my memory before Eclipse :p