Really (정말)

By Song Joong Ki

사랑했었잖아 정말
saranghessotjana jongmal
We were in love, really

좋아했었잖아 정말
joahessotjana jongmal
We liked each other, really

미칠 것 같아서 터질 것 같아서 정말
michil got gataso tojil got gataso jongmal
Felt like going crazy, felt like I’d burst, really

이제는 떠나자 다시
ijeneun ttonaja dasi
So let’s leave now again

니가 또 그리워 오늘도
niga tto geuriwo oneuldo
I miss you again today

가슴에 남아서 지울 수 없어서 정말
gaseume namaso jiul su obsoso jongmal
Because you remain in my heart and I can’t erase you, really,

이렇게도 아픈데 난
irokedo apeunde nan
I’m hurting like this


사랑해서 눈물이 난다 가슴이 아파 와서 또 눈물이 나
sarangheso nunmuri nanda gaseumi apa waso tto nunmuri na
Because I love you, tears fall
Because my heart hurts, tears fall again

다시 널 잃어버릴까 다시 잃어버릴까 내 두 눈이 너만 본다
dasi noriroborilkka dasi iroborilkka ne du nuni noman bonda
In case I lose you again, in case I lose you again
My two eyes only look at you

널 사랑하는 날 좀 바라봐
nol saranghaneun nal jom barabwa
Look at me, who loves you

이렇게 눈물이 나서 자꾸 눈물이 나서
iroke nunmuri naso jakku nunmuri naso
Because tears fall like this, because tears keep falling,

다시 살아도 또 다시 살아도 너야
dasi sarado tto dasi sarado noya
Even if I’m born again, even if I’m born again, it’s you



이별의 시작은 그렇게
ibyore sijageun geuroke
I said that I hate the start of goodbyes

싫다고 했는데 이렇게
siltago henneunde iroke


다시 사랑하면 널 그리워하면 정말
dasi saranghamyon nol geuriwohamyon jongmal
But if I love again, if I miss you, really,

돌아올 수 있겠니 난
doraol su itgenni nan
Can you come back?

사랑해서 눈물이 난다 가슴이 아파 와서 또 눈물이 나
sarangheso nunmuri nanda gaseumi apa waso tto nunmuri na
다시 널 잃어버릴까 다시 잃어버릴까 내 두 눈이 너만 본다
dasi noriroborilkka dasi iroborilkka ne du nuni noman bonda
널 사랑하는 날 좀 바라봐
nol saranghaneun nal jom barabwa
이렇게 눈물이 나서 자꾸 눈물이 나서
iroke nunmuri naso jakku nunmuri naso
다시 살아도 또 다시 살아도 너야
dasi sarado tto dasi sarado noya

너만 본다
noman bonda
I only see you

널 기다리고 기다리자나
nol gidarigo gidarijana
I’m waiting and waiting for you

혹시나 돌아올까봐 다시 돌아올까봐
hoksina doraolkkabwa dasi doraolkkabwa
In case you come back, in case you come back again

비를 맞아도 눈속을 걸어도
bireul majado nunsogeul gorodo
Even if I’m rained on, even if I walk in the snow

다시 또 살아도 오직 너야
dashi tto sarado ojing-noya
Even if I’m born again, it’s only you

xx

Little things that make my day

Loving today's findings <3 br="br"> Particularly smiling sillily at the last picture ;>

History of eating alone

It's a cold winter morning, but the sun hasn't shined any brighter than today. As usual, she's woken up midday..blaming the insomnia she had the night before. First thing in mind is 'what to eat?' cos apparently her stomach's been up all night playing the rock concert. In a second she notices no one's home, and no one is right to be invited for lunch. So she makes up her mind to dine in a nearby cafe, by herself.

It's lunchtime by the time she enters the cafe, and there's barely any table unoccupied. A lady by the door who dresses like a French maid widens her grin and kindly addresses her to one of the two-seats table. A menu is prepared on the table and the girl still has her insecure look on her eyes. After another lady who dresses similarly to the first one asks her what she'd like to have, she finally gives her an answer: a cup of white hot chocolate, and a plate of fried baby calamari. 

No one can tell but it's her first time dining alone. She had usually rather ordered takeaway, but this time she'd rather not. She begins observing people who come with their family, partner, or friends. Well, seems like dining alone isn't so popular these days. What goes through her mind is how sad she must have looked like right now. Maybe looking like a girl who is heartbroken. Or sitting and waiting for someone who never comes. You know what, the truth is, I don't think a single person in the room cares about her dining alone. Nor would they think she looks as sad as she thinks she looks like. The truth is, she doesn't look sad, she just feels so. 

What makes her sad is the fact that she'd rather eating alone in a lovely cafe than a call to invite her friends. And the fact that there is no one that seems right to call to. Then she begins to wonder, where have her best people gone? Who has she been meeting all this time? Well eating alone doesn't seem as bad as what she has thought, though. In fact she'd do it again sometimes. The only problem is, she feels bad because she'd rather not eating with anyone this time. As if she doesn't have any nice people around her to share a table and a chat with. Yes, that's probably the problem. 

Not long after her last thought, her order comes. Then she starts eating without thinking even a bit any more. Before her last bite of the meal, she finally realizes something..the answer. Then she's never felt more alone...in that moment of truth. 

Spotted

Sharing some of my favourite spotted today. Except for the pastries, and the Opera House view - oh and the Christmas tree- all of the artworks were displayed at Museum of Contemporary Art Australia! Look how amazing some of the artworks are.. Definitely one of the must-visit spots in Sydney for artists. The entry to the museum is FREE too, the government knows how to facilitate the city :)


Cheers,
Winny

What makes my day!

Hi everyone how did your day go? ;) Mine was very good (thank you for asking) in fact I'd like to share what have happened!

So first highlight was my dream last night -or morning you may say cos I slept at 3 am. I had the Korean actor Song Joong Ki in my dream (finally lol) !! I said finally cos I've been obsessing about him day and night since I start watching him as the lead in a most recent kdrama - The Innocent Man. I'm sure if you follow K-drama you must have heard about this one! I would recommend the drama to anyone who loves stories on revenge, betrayal and romance coming in a package. Another reason to watch is the lead male character is very well played. Frankly I'm going to make a confession here, his character is so my cup of tea!! <3

I'm going to warn you reader that what I'm about to say in my dream can sound so delusional, in fact you may not bear it. But I can't be more excited bcs that's what my dreams always are! :>
So Joong Ki was in there cos we just happened to meet ( through nowhere). Well in my dream me and him are like ordinary guy and girl getting to know each other and apparently (I'm so excited) I think we are starting to like each other too! We often meet cos he's staying in the same apartment as me, so the setting is either in the walkway to my unit or in my Apartment Club ( swimming pool, relaxing spots). I love how he seems like an ordinary guy meeting his crush (more like me meeting my crush) chatting the afternoon away, just having fun. His character in my dream was the shy and cool guy, but when it comes to things he is good at he becomes talkative and playful. Hehehe. Actually Michelle Phan ( a youtube beauty ) also appears and acts like his sister in it. She's the reason I could often meet him cos me and Michelle actually become close friends!

The best thing about my dream is I could feel for a while like I actually meet Joong Ki in person and can have any normal relationship like with ordinary guys I could make friends with. See how amazing is dreams cos they have no boundaries? ;p
The worst thing is that it is not real. So as soon as I open my eyes they all become unreal memories. Dream on you say? Oh well ;>

Proceed....second highlight of my day is when I read a few pages of a book. I'm not much of a reader it's what I've been pushing training myself to love. So yeah a productive moment makes me happy!

Third, which is the most grateful highlight of the day is the fact that I passed all the courses I took this semester!!! Yes the results have been released and finally greatest wish this month granted! Omg I am so so so thankful cos I (also) dreamed I failed a course, I'm so overjoyed this part of my dream isn't realised!

Final highlight of the day is watching the ARIAawards from TV where Taylor Swift performed 'I knew you were trouble'. She's amazing and adorable!!

To wrap up, I am just very grateful, happy, excited, of the events that have happened yesterday. I can really look back to this lengthy post and relive the memory especially the best which is the Joong Ki part (hehehe) :3
It's approaching 2 in the morning and I am not feeling really well which I think is the aftereffect of noming too much chips. Anyways I have plans for tomorrow I hope it'll be better. Hope you did have a good day and a better one tomorrow! Happy holidays everyone! ;>

Is it only me

It's been a good start of the day
Lunch on the dining table
Milk tea on the side
Spending afternoon burdenless comfy happy

There goes the conversation
That ends in argument
Never it was my intention
Guess what the good has ended

Is it only me
Or there really shouldnt be anyone
For me to trust my happiness in
Is it only me
Or the brightest days have gone away
And never to find their way back

Good things come when we least expect them
So what can I do instead of believing?
No more broken dreams or broken hearts
Cos nothing to dream of, no one left to love..

New face

Hello are you a blogwalker? You must be, cos I have just changed my blog address and it's no way you can find me without me telling you! Ok I'm kidding I did write the address in one of my social media account.

So I am entering the boredom phase in holidays. I'm approaching my third week of unemployment.. Sleep at dawn, wake up in noon, eat, laze, eat again, laze again, sleep.. you know that cycle.
Out of the blue, I think also due to boredom overdose, I wanna go home. Like literally go home. I'm so friendless here I'm not kidding I feel like it's a me-time everyday. I have that desire to travel to the end of Sydney, taste the untested, feel the unfelt. Summer holidays are meant to be filled with amazing memories, but why mine is so dull (duh) Which is why my desire to go home is burning. Ok I'm neither friend-ful in hometown, but at least I have a to-do list I'd like to accomplish! Sigh I know this is so lame but I gotta admit having no crush and/or no best pal by my side sucks big timeeeeee! It's like living with no passion. All I have is the love for myself, not giving away or receiving any. Now you agree with me? X<


I'm thinking about setting a theme for my blog. Something I love sharing about, something I can regularly write about. Any suggestion about preferences? Kindly write in the comment or email me at winn.tea@hotmail.com! I'll be very much grateful and I won't bite ;)

Since writings can get boring, I decide to post this lovely moment I froze a while ago!

Til the next post then, xx

Numb.

I had this vision, which led me here. A part of me keeps bothering. When or how it will ever feel that way again. The butterflies in the stomach, blossoms in my garden. Little things that make my day. Will it ever come again?

These nights come without permission, without answers..just questions. They say don't rush love, or it'll run away. Maybe it's true, but when will come the day?
It's too much, teach me how to contain. No more blossoms , no more butterflies. Did 'Spring' miss its train?

Oh but hey, you're the pretty one, they say. Don't worry there will come the day. When your heart skips a beat, and him sweeping your feet off the ground. Remember, keep not only heart but eyes open. Don't fall into the same hole, or make the same mistakes.

My my what I'd do to make it come true. The butterflies in the stomach, blossoms in my garden. Little things that make my day. Too cold right here, the sun's been shining there. Will 'Winter' soon walk away?

x

Everything has changed,

It's over. Finals is finally over. Can you believe that? Maybe you can, but I can't, yet.
Ran a movie marathon to spend this evening. I need some refreshment, some reality to kick me hard, this time to prove I'm not dreaming.
It's quite hard to believe it's finally happening.. one-third-of-a-year long of holidays. Do I really deserve this? I really hope so.

The last ten days have been my toughest edu life. In fact, I think the whole semester. I'm sure if you've been following my blog you'll know how frequently I've complained about uni life. Last ten days, though, were the hell-iest. You know that time when you were determined that giving up was not on the list, but there's merely a thin line that's separating you from it? There goes the worst moments. Like how I wish I could fast forward time, into like the one I am in now. Imagining myself writing this entry, elaborating into words how I exactly felt. It was sick.

I was warned, like I've always been, how the next stage of education life I was about to face is going to get more ugly. My sisters definitely knew it best. The start of my overseas education was remarkable though. The moment when I finally managed to tick that dream achievement off my list. Also, when I made some good friends along the journey that stay until today. However my life seems to take a turn with its new Audi and drove me somewhere- which now I recall- the infinity path. The name shall define it well.

They say during your toughest times you come to appreciate the happy ones. I don't know what will happen just yet, but I've decided to learn to make full use of each day that will be passing, for the rest of the holidays. The year 2012 is approaching an end too. Which means I'm going to survive another one, this time I can say hardly.

Closing off this blog post with the song from the adorable singer- yes imma Swiftie ;)

Remindęr

Sometimes, the only thing I need to remind myself is that everything that I put my effort into, is gonna be worth it in the end. It's a matter of time, really. Just like how spring comes after winter, how autumn cools the summer. Sometimes, I need to just work, wait and see. And remember to aim for the moon, cause even if I fall, I'll land among the stars.

Give it my best

So I volunteered for selling merchandise on Pink Ribbon Day yesterday, and it was surprisingly fun!
Unlike Daffodil Day, this time I sold a lot more stuff! I think reason being could be due to the location I'm working at, and/or the popularity of the fundraising.

This got me thinking about the concepts I've been learning at school:

1. Even the two 'brand's in the same organisation, can have different reaction from the public. Do we call it in the commerce term..image branding? 
2. The location of the 'store' makes big difference! The first time I was volunteering at a landmark in Sydney: Darling Harbour, where tourists are relatively more compared to locals on the working hours. Tourists may also not be familiar with the event and refuse to contribute, and they might not care much since it is not for their home country..? I choose to believe more on the first reasoning. Darling Harbour is indeed close to some offices, but not as many as in the Town Hall Station, where people also get off and on trains every minute. Higher chances to meet citizens who are supportive towards the familiar fundraising event ;)
3. Customer service plays a role! The more we enjoy volunteering for this cause, the more we seem 'approachable'.This can be seen through the conversation among members, the 'welcoming' atmosphere among the staffs which show 'friendliness' to others. The smiles we give away whenever they buy (or even not buy something).. oh and the marketing strategy, like the presentation of the merchandises (ie. the 'catchy' colours)! : )
4. Since the 'staff members' in this case are those who volunteer.. they may show greater job and organisation commitment. Working for 5 hours with short (sometimes even no) break as well as no monetary reward..shows the employee engagement in the organisation ;) Of course we are allowed to take breaks as long as we want but since this working is individual consent.. we might feel a little guilty, no? :p

Sorry if I confuse you with some of the commerce terms x) I'm practising to apply the management knowledge (I'm about to be tested) in the recall of that experience.. hehehe

By the way, finals is approaching very very soon.. and I better be well prepared by the time it's here. Wish me the luck and motivation I can get to nail this big thing? It's probably the most important 'exam' I have still got to face before the end of year. All possible fingers crossed xxxx

Thought I might also share today's happenings and inspiration:

Reminder

One of the many food trucks in 'Movable Feast' even tonight!

Food truck's hunt. yummmm ;B

I find this lovely <#3

Until next time then! xoxo

Come back to life

My first semester attending University is nearing an end. Time is crazy fast when you are having fun and stuffs to do all the time. One down, another to go.. another down, other to go.. the list is never empty.

I have just enrolled the courses for next semester. All thanks to my Indo peers who have started discussing the timetable of the same course we all are taking: Macroeconomics 1. So basically we want to be enrolled in the same tutorial, so we could meet more often. Each one of us is now taking own direction..some are considering to take similar majors, others like me, are partially on my own.

Life is getting more interesting since uni started. Looking back, all the issues in both social and education life still intrigue me today. I may have improved my learning style in Foundation Studies months ago, but in Uni I come back to where I used to be.. the slacking, complaining, lack-of-motivation learning style. It takes me one semester to come to realisation how University is teaching the students.. how I should be learning. My sister keeps telling me " It's no longer foundation " whenever I complain of the lack of care my tutors have for their students. The reality just slapped me hard.. and I am still NOT in consciousness.

I hate the fact that I have been in lack of motivation these past couple of months. Each day that has passed I remind myself to spend time productively, yet I still prioritise anything else but my studies.. and the cycle is repeating. It aches me how I have failed to bring back my hibernating curiosity and the time that has been wasted for nothing.

However, I hope I learn through all these. There's nothing more valuable than the lessons coming after awful experience. I am crossing my fingers for a better day tomorrow. For the realisation of the beauty of working hard, for having motivations and goals, for the happy productive me. xxx

Novel review: Fifty Shades

I've just turned after the last page of the trilogy of Fifty Shades.

Summary
Basically it is an erotic (yes you read it right) romance novel focusing on the world of a college graduate, Anastasia Steele, and a to-die-for CEO with a dark past, Christian Grey. By to-die-for I mean, gorgeously beautiful, HOT, rich as hell heaven, and young, looking at his achievement. 
Grey has always indulged in BDSM relationship - Dominant-submissive one. He's a control freak for one minute, tender and loving another... fifty shades in total. (This is where the title derives from)
Steele, on the other hand, is the innocent, shy, bright, courageous young lady who has captured Grey's heart the first step she enters Grey's office to interview him.

Long story short, the first trilogy, Fifty Shades of Grey focusing mainly on the issue whether Anastasia could accept the relationship Christian's offering her, considering her very minimal relationship experience.. the BDSM. This includes Christian's frustrations on how he can't -for once in his life- control a thing he wants, unlike his previous submissive. The second trilogy Fifty Shades of Darker reveals more of Christian's past. His ex-submissive, past dominant (yes he's been a submissive once in his life), conflicts on his and Ana's personalities and perceptions on relationship.. and life. Third and probably final of the trilogy, Fifty Shades of Freed focuses on their lives after marriage (oops, mind a bit spoiling here :p ). 

Review

The best remark on this novel is probably how I managed to finish THREE novels in 2 weeks time. This amazes me since I could barely finish a novel in one week, in general. A reason could be because I read the e-book version which is more handy, practical, and attempting(?) 

The Columbus Dispatch also criticised the book but stated that, "Despite the clunky prose, James does cause one to turn the page."*

This, I can't agree more. Despite the coarse language, this trilogy is an interesting piece of work. I love how the depiction of Christian Grey and Anastasia Steele seem so real, yet so unreal. Real in terms it may possibly happen (or have happened) in our life, in reality now. Yet so unreal because it's so far from the world which I revolve in right now. The whole sensual, erotic relationship I can only imagine many ( or even most) of the bules - Westerners - could be in. I know I may be so wrong, but well that's why I say it's far from my world. 
However the kind of romance they are having is heart-throbbing. It's as though they are made for each other- match-made from heaven I'd say. 

This novel has kept me thinking of the thousand opportunities money and wealth can bring,  the once-a-lifetime-make-it-happen ambition. The dreams that have the chance to come true. I think I'm confusing you with my description here but you probably know the idea. ;)

Overalls, I would say this novel has successfully kicked out the boredom in my 'lifeless' life right now.. at least keep me company ( thinking) for some moment. It's refreshing, exciting, thrilling, dirty, and um educating? Haha not the kind of word people would use I know. I guess it's realistic topic to touch on since it's going to be a part (sometimes even major) in marriage live. So it won't be so guilty if we can be more open-minded about the language, and mind our imagination. :D



* quoted from Wikipedia.en.org

Rating: 4.5 out of 5 in fun reading, refreshing, thrilling.

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Heya!

I apologize for the negative atmosphere in my blog :/ I've just been so depressed lately.
I start to get the feel I'm not as diligent as I did in my foundation year, the lesser the lessons, the more I procrastinate ugh

Right now I am busy preparing for 2 major reports for Management and Statistics. I can't believe how they seem 'do-able' but when I start my work, I am blank.
Statistics consume pretty much my one week YET they are not finished.. I can barely say halfway. Thanks to my level 999999 of procrastination ._____.
Management's due on Wednesday this coming week which say I only have 3 more nights to totally nail it!
This past week has been a long one I am sure the next is gonna be longer..

I pray for my inner will to quickly recover from its illness (procrastination) and get strong enough to nail the 'deadly' reports. I pray for sleepless nights ahead to pay off and for my brain, may it recover in no time from its short-term-memory illness. I pray for all things to fall into place til finals end. For my first semester of uni to pass awesomely. Please do pray for me too?

when life gives me another lemon

Hey how r y'all doin?


It's only my 9th week of being a uni student and I already feel like forever. No joke.
Apparently this time I'm taking quite long a time to adapt to something new. A further level of education I've wondered all senior high school years. This is truly the beginning of the independent world.

I can't believe I'm saying this but Uni life is hard. and serious.
It's either you work your *ss off and get rewarded, or fool around and fail the course. It's the least mercy of all the education stages I've been through.
"But why is it hard for you?"
I'm more of the procrastinator than the organised type of learner. Each week there is only one two-hour lecture and one one-hour tutorial for each subject, so in total I've got only 12 hours of school teachings for 4 subjects I'm taking. But no, it's not enough if you really want adequate understanding of each topic. The rest is expected to be self-study..which lies the problem for me.

Well if I can choose I'd rather have more of one or two tutorials for each subject per week. Just like foundi year where there are two tutorials each week for 'challenging' subjects. Oh and, with a professional tutor, not recently-graduated bachelor students. Yeah that would be very helpful.

Nevertheless, University life isn't meant to be like my way, yes I realise. It would have been harder to cope later in the work life if uni's educational system is arranged in a 'dependent' study manner..since I believe there won't be many 'tutors' or 'lecturers' any more.

So the solution to this is, I gotta play it well this time. In any way I possibly can. There's no other option that is more rewarding. Coz in the end, I'm going to look back at this moment, and proudly state.. " I made it. "

Nothing I do is right. Not even for myself. So am I supposed to live life pleasing anyone but myself? Is there a place where I even belong?





 Can I just disappear?

What will you do today to help beat cancer?

Hey guys! Today this post will talk about a most recent event I'm involved in: the Daffodil Day!

Cancer fact:

Have you guys ever realised...
that 1 in 3 women are diagnosed with cancer before the age of 85;
and 1 in 2 men are diagnosed with cancer before the age of 85?
coz I just do.

What is Cancer Council?

Cancer Council NSW is a community funded, community focused cancer charity dedicated to the defeat of cancer. 

Through the development of prevention strategies, research into new treatments and cures, and by providing clinical and emotional support to those affected by cancer, we work towards realising our vision of a society where lives are not cut short by or their quality diminished by cancer. 

We have the broadest reach of any cancer organisation in New South Wales and have been a trusted cancer charity for more than 50 years.

Here is a short compiled facts about cancer from cancercouncil I find very interesting and boring-less! It presents facts and reasons why we should start preventing cancer today!!!

http://hope.cancercouncil.com.au/?gclid=CJmn5Ymk8bECFRBTpgodcGkAXQ 


For more info, kindly visit
http://www.cancercouncil.com.au/

I see...so what is Daffodil Day?

Daffodil Day is one of Australia’s best known and most popular fundraising events. 

Each day more than 100 Australians will die of cancer. 

Daffodil Day raises funds for Cancer Council to continue its work in cancer research, providing patient support programs and prevention programs to all Australians. Daffodil Day helps grow hope for better treatments, hope for more survivors, hope for a cure.
To Cancer Council, the daffodil represents hope for a cancer-free future. You too, can help in the fight against cancer by participating in Daffodil Day. Daffodil Day merchandise is on sale throughout August, and you can donate to Daffodil Day at any time.

For more detailed information, or if you simply wish to witness some beautiful web design (not kidding)... care to drop by at https://www.daffodilday.com.au/ :p


So this year, I get myself registered to volunteer in one of their fundraising events here in Australia which is held next Friday, August the 24th! This will involve selling merchandise at Darling Harbour from 2pm-7pm.
Here is the list of merchandises I'm helping to sell!

I am so excited I can be indirectly involved to cure cancer or at least help raising public awareness of cancer issues :D oh well I hope I've raised your awareness if you care to read this far ;)

Ok I'm convinced! How can I help? :)

There several possible ways you can help. See, if there is a will, there's always a way ;)

But... the easiest one would be to raise awareness, starting from your closest people: Family, friends, boyfriend(s), girlfriend(s), teachers, colleagues...by sharing the videos to your social network pages, or more excitingly....wear Yellow on Daffodil Day!! 

You can also donate!

For those residing in Australia who wish to donate for the beautiful Daffodil Day (sorry no way for other countries :x) you can find out about it in the website, which is HERE :D
Another video how Daffodil Day helps!

OH good news for others residing Anywhere in the world (where the internet is present ofcoz) who wish to participate in the Cancer Council, or donating! Here is the link: http://www.cancercouncil.com.au/donate/

Last but not least....

Help preventing cancer from today! Prevention is better than cure, right? ;)

For more information, visit Cancer Council or Daffodil Day!

Cheers for the cancer-free future xx