A Day To Be Joyful and Learn

Yesterday- 2nd May, 2010

I did great today by making sure to myself that every plan would turn out good. And I'm so glad it came true :b
At first my plan to see a movie was nearly canceled. Since I couldn't stand waiting in the (very) looooong queue at 21cinema with my empty stomach, I decided to return after lunch. Well, I expected the vision of another long queue but then I guess we (me and karvina)were lucky. It was 2.30 p.m and we kind of expecting Iron Man2 back-seat tickets were still available, but then 3 studios' tickets were full (can you imagine?) until 9 pm. We had no other option except IP Man2, and after both of us agreed, we bought 2 tickets of the movie shown at 3.10 p.m in row A. :)

I bought plenty of things yesterday and ate a loott @.@ BUT they brightened up my mood :P

Mom was home yesterday and she bought me a lot of clothes and accessories. ALL of them are Korean style. Geez if I didn't know where she went, I would've thought she was home from Korea (X

I realized I had typed some words yesterday that would no doubt hurt my mother if she read them. I know all this time I keep telling myself I should be patient, I should listen, I should think. I have NEVER wanted my mother to hurt my mother and I love her sooooo much, I mean it. Sometimes I just can't think clearly as my ego seemed to start blocking the whole view of the goods one of her. My craving for permanent freedom, I guess.

Well, one thing I may not truly understand now is how hard to be a mother is. She has to be caring, loving, and patient. She also has to be firm to us every time we make mistakes. She has to be a loving wife, a hardworking career woman, a caring mother, as well as a well-behaved daughter-in-law. To play such massive role in our family may be quite impossible, but I am sure to say, all of US have never doubt my love for her. I know I can never thank you enough after all you've done and will keep on doing for me, for US. ♥

I'm so sorry for hurting youuu :(
I ♥ YOU MOTHER, I REALLY DO.

Be blessed.

OH MY.

I seriously don't know what's going on with today, or what's going on with me. I think I need to flower-bathed now.

First,
Today is the National Education Day. Then our class and several other plus classes' students were asked to attend a ceremony at school today, which of course we protested. Having to wake up in 6 ( although I might be at 7 :p ) on once-in-a-week holiday is too early! who would've not protested?
Then guess what, yes, I WASN'T THERE. I slept at 1 (again!) this morning, and I had reminded myself -no matter what- to wake up early at 6.30. I wanted to prove to myself that even though mom and dad are not around, I can still be discipline. Isn't that always has been one of my attempts to show that I'm a grown-up already? But then, I can't even prove it to myself! BIG SIGH*

Second,
As I didn't want to worsen my Sunday, I prepared myself to attend the Sunday Class earlier. Then guess what? It's on holiday, and I didn't know that! )x

I begin to wonder if those are punishments for me. For sleeping too late, being a procrastinator these 2 weeks. :X
well then, mom is home in no time and I will return to my old habit. No online at night. Revise every night. Not allowed to do any of my passions in weekdays. and SO ON. which I conclude I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BE MYSELF AND DO WHAT I WANT EXCEPT STUDYING AND STUDYING ON WEEKDAYS. Sometimes on weekends I would also be lectured for being so lazy.
MY GAWD, merely thinking of those make me feel nausea. When will my mom actually release me from this what-I-call the cage of torment? :/ The answer is in myself, I know.

I've had several plans ahead for today. I truly wish none of the unexpected things will occur again in the date with my dear later.
Oh Buddha, shall You bless Your devotee for she has been committing wrongdoings lately. Sadhu.. sadhu.. sadhu.