Be blessed.

OH MY.

I seriously don't know what's going on with today, or what's going on with me. I think I need to flower-bathed now.

First,
Today is the National Education Day. Then our class and several other plus classes' students were asked to attend a ceremony at school today, which of course we protested. Having to wake up in 6 ( although I might be at 7 :p ) on once-in-a-week holiday is too early! who would've not protested?
Then guess what, yes, I WASN'T THERE. I slept at 1 (again!) this morning, and I had reminded myself -no matter what- to wake up early at 6.30. I wanted to prove to myself that even though mom and dad are not around, I can still be discipline. Isn't that always has been one of my attempts to show that I'm a grown-up already? But then, I can't even prove it to myself! BIG SIGH*

Second,
As I didn't want to worsen my Sunday, I prepared myself to attend the Sunday Class earlier. Then guess what? It's on holiday, and I didn't know that! )x

I begin to wonder if those are punishments for me. For sleeping too late, being a procrastinator these 2 weeks. :X
well then, mom is home in no time and I will return to my old habit. No online at night. Revise every night. Not allowed to do any of my passions in weekdays. and SO ON. which I conclude I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BE MYSELF AND DO WHAT I WANT EXCEPT STUDYING AND STUDYING ON WEEKDAYS. Sometimes on weekends I would also be lectured for being so lazy.
MY GAWD, merely thinking of those make me feel nausea. When will my mom actually release me from this what-I-call the cage of torment? :/ The answer is in myself, I know.

I've had several plans ahead for today. I truly wish none of the unexpected things will occur again in the date with my dear later.
Oh Buddha, shall You bless Your devotee for she has been committing wrongdoings lately. Sadhu.. sadhu.. sadhu.