"I've never given much thought to how I would die...
but to die in the place of someone I love..seems like a good way to go."
-Bella Swan.
Things happened these few weeks of holiday had caused me to ponder a lot..which is, I think, good. I have not been using much of my brain's ability for quite some time, and unlike what I used to think, thinking about studies is easier than about life problems.
Dad..has often been the one to make me conscious of all those. His unreasonable scoldings, angers, protection, and love towards me are his ways of bringing me up. Although, to tell to truth, I dislike them. At good times, he showers me with unconditional love, give me almost everything that I wish for, and make me believe that nothing impossible for me to reach. But in return, he puts high expectations on me. Not only in education, but in everyday life's matters. High risks, high returns..I know. But I can't stand disappointing him anymore. The stern scoldings, harsh words, when my work was nothing up to his expectations.
They are just very high, I can tell. It's not like they're impossible, but I just need to learn first step by step. I'm not born having all the requirements of a wonder girl. Yeah, I aim to be one, I always do. But now, I'm not even close to it, Daddy, not yet.
TIME. That's what I lack..but keep wasting. To make the full use of it, and my mind, that's what I'm aiming for.
I promise you..someday, someway, I will be the way I should be. And by that time, I hope you will still walk with your head up, chin high, when telling people I am your daughter. Just like the way I am now when I mention to anybody about you.
-Bella Swan.
Things happened these few weeks of holiday had caused me to ponder a lot..which is, I think, good. I have not been using much of my brain's ability for quite some time, and unlike what I used to think, thinking about studies is easier than about life problems.
Dad..has often been the one to make me conscious of all those. His unreasonable scoldings, angers, protection, and love towards me are his ways of bringing me up. Although, to tell to truth, I dislike them. At good times, he showers me with unconditional love, give me almost everything that I wish for, and make me believe that nothing impossible for me to reach. But in return, he puts high expectations on me. Not only in education, but in everyday life's matters. High risks, high returns..I know. But I can't stand disappointing him anymore. The stern scoldings, harsh words, when my work was nothing up to his expectations.
They are just very high, I can tell. It's not like they're impossible, but I just need to learn first step by step. I'm not born having all the requirements of a wonder girl. Yeah, I aim to be one, I always do. But now, I'm not even close to it, Daddy, not yet.
TIME. That's what I lack..but keep wasting. To make the full use of it, and my mind, that's what I'm aiming for.
I promise you..someday, someway, I will be the way I should be. And by that time, I hope you will still walk with your head up, chin high, when telling people I am your daughter. Just like the way I am now when I mention to anybody about you.
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