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THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE!
Oh myy I really couldn't believeeeeeee I have actually managed to reach my target! This is just too good to be true... Thank you so much to all parts involved in making one of my greatest days; First and foremost, dearest Buddha! Coming up next our guardian angel (Grannie), Ah-mazing two sisterss :*, beloved supportive father and mother, Ms Jessica, Ms Anita, Sir Harkiman, all the supports from friends! AHHHHHH I'm speechless.

What happened, has happened.

This post is actually intended to upload the pictures at the orphanage, as I promised, but they are all at my hard disk and it's going to spend much time from transfering the photos from it to lappie, then upload it. So I think I'll just write a quick post of what's happening! :)

XII-SCI-02 (VOC) at Sutomo 1 [my super class!] has now applied a new regulation. All of the students inside, visitors coming by, anyone who wants to step in the class has to take off their shoes before coming in. Only clean and new sandals are allowed in the class apart from just wearing socks and barefoot.We now clean our class almost every day, making sure there is no spot of dirt in the floor . We took the window curtain to the laundry to be cleaned too since it had been completely dirty let alone dusty. So actually, whose idea is this whole thing? I think it's from the class monitor! He always has a bunch of nice ideas :)

Anyways, IELTS' result will release tomorrow. Right now I'm scared but got nothing I can do about it so I guess it's no use of being scared. This result is desperately important! I hope I can reach my target sadhu3x o:)

School exam is in lesssssss than 2 weeks and that scares the hell out of me. I've got not much time left, chapters untouched, and here comes another bother. Sometimes, he just doesn't really think far, does he? Sigh, I've got nothing to tell. Anyhow I hope I could do GREAT this semester to help my dying grades :'(

Wish me work hard!!

l o v e,

W

A preview!

I realized I have not posted any photos for months! So hereeeeee, a sneak peak of my new haircut (not quite new actually, it's been a month )

BEFORE

 AFTER

How is it? Many of my friends question my sanity since I haven't cut this short since anyone can remember. Haha. I personally think the new haircut's quite playful.. and fresh. So I don't mind :3

It's now, and never.

I'm elated that I've finally done the IELTS. I feel extremely..relieved :) Now the hard work I've done, is surely gonna be paid off in two weeks. It has to. After the result has released, and I'm declared to have passed the standard I need- or if I did well, manage to reach my target ♥ (sadhu3x) - I'm then one step closer to my future plan :b

To plan about what I am going to be in the future is both confusing and exciting, I guess. there comes those amazing fantasies, zeal for the future, overwhelming you. The never-ending options we get to choose, yet not sure which one is the real one we are destined to do, or the one we are willing to work hard for in the future. What does the future really have in store for me? I guess I'm the only one to be able to figure it out.

So tomorrow, 21st November 2010, me and more than half of my classmates are going to the orphanage. :) This is the first time for most of us, including myself. I'm looking forward to it..I'll be sure to blog about it tomorrow : )

Anyways, talking about the major (yes, again!) I think I really should make up my mind sooooon as there's not much time left. See, high school is going to end in...half a year? Gosh every time that thought crosses my mind, I will reminisce about how when I was just in the elementary school, the end of school years still felt so far..and how I wanted to end school soon. : /

Okay, guess I shall stop worrying about all those things for just tonight..and maybe tomorrow, and start worrying again when Monday comes. Gah, Monday is always not my favourite day of the whole week .__.

PS, Now I know, now I shall be sure.. There's nothing more to be expected. :)
Miss you Grannie, our family's guardian angel ♥ I know you can listen to me every night I pray to you :')

contemplating..always

In a few days, I am going to sit for an important test as the first step of applying a university in Sydney. Yes, it's IELTS. I'm verrrrrrrryyy nervous, but there are more things to think about right now so I can barely mind that feeling. Sure it's going to be okay, everybody else often tells me. I have to be confident enough for this test, to manage to reach my target. Gosh, just to think about the D-day now makes me nervous already, UGH :/

Talking about university, I'm still contemplating much about it. I am going to Sydney, but not sure what to take as major..or which university to apply. This uncertainty has been filling my mind for weeks now, even months! It's always very frustrating when I come to talk about it..what I picture myself doing in the future. So basically I have interest in anything artsy, and to major in business is still a consideration. The thing about art is, I CANNOT DRAW..yeah, that's the main problem. All this time I only imagine mix and matching clothes, colors. When it's photography, I can barely imagine, I just..shoot. See now, I'm very lack of talent in art and design. SIGH how I wish, how I wish :\

Today's highlight would be I managed to attend Sunday Class at the temple today, after, like, a month :)
I feel blessed..I really did. I should make it a custom now..there will be no excuse like not being able to wake up early, I'll definitely work on it! May you have a great start of the week tomorrow, readers!


love,
W

Past.Me.Future

All this time, I've been keeping this to myself and my closest ones only. Now, I come to admit a bittersweet truth. For the countless times, on the same source, I admit, my heart's broken. Sad to say, it's always bcs of that same guy I've put faith in since years ago.

I've promised not to talk abt it anymore ever since the decision was made. I've known that there'll come this day, it's just sooner than what I thought. I've known once I let myself go..you'll be in someone else's arm. I thought I had prepared for it, just like the previous time.

Unfortunately, I'm still in the process of the whole thing. And you're (always) far ahead already. This kind of thing is very new to me..I know it takes time, and I can deal with it. :)

The risks of the choice I made, they're definitely coming to me now..one by one. I'm collecting my strength at this kind of time, to push away all the unwillingness, doubts..source of my unhappiness. I'm learning to let happiness from other sources come overwhelming me ever single day. I'm trying to live each day to the fullest. They say this is what being alive is about, and it's true. My days may not be at their best nowadays, but simply feeling alive is the best thing already to me. :)

Dear Buddha, this time I'm not hoping much. I simply ask for Your guidance, through darkness and sorrow, agony or happiness. Let this be my lessons on life. Let me learn as much as I can. Let me suffer before I'm at cloud nine. Above all, let me appreciate life. sadhu3x


love,
W