I'm free now. From school literally. I have time and the opportunity to do whatever (well only most) things I feel like doing all this time. 5 months from now I'll be heading to a new chapter of life, in a brand new city. I can imagine the feeling will be like being reborn.
I'm not being cheesy here but I miss school. Not the subjects, but the classroom. The people, the atmosphere. High school must have been the last time I'd ever have 52 people studying in the same class with me everyday. Getting to know one another, most of the time being care-free. All we need to focus on were subjects. We could predict mostly what would have happened tomorrow. What class would it be. What time would we reach home.
Starting now, each day is filled with many new kinds of activities. Starting now, I cannot always push things to happen as I want, not if the circumstances don't allow. Starting now, there will be lesser friends you meet everyday, lesser people to be able to chat with.
But From now on, I plan what to do everyday. I'm feeling more alive now indeed, and growing more mature. From now on, and most importantly, I'll know which of my friends are true to me. By meaning which one does really care and take you as a friend.
It's sad though how nowadays I feel I'm having less real friends. Or shall I say less ones who actually care, and try to understand. Perhaps I'm being demanding now, but well, I'll figure everything out in no time..
