lost and lonely

Thoughts lately:

• I get so bored easily, lately. I couldn't enjoy what I thought used to be fun and instead doing boring things like watching dramas and stuck at home on weekends. This is so confusing. This happened ever since I came back here after holidays I think. I feel lifeless. *dang*

• I am not a fighter. anymore. I used to be much willing to fight for what I love, for people for things for goals. I've lacked the spirit now. Mostly the reason is I don't have much to fight for nowadays. No particular loved ones, no particular things or goals. I feel lifeless. :<

• After I find a reason that lifts up my mood or gets me excited again, I tend to be too dependent and scared, unprepared.. and in the end I get bored or lose it again. What's wrong with me these days?

• I become less and less grateful. This is not happening to me oh God. I need some refreshments for the soul, please I shall attend Sunday Puja this week _/\_

• Something nice! I met with a high school friend today and realised many things. One of them is to be just me, as in not trying too hard. I've lost track on this lately. I feel pressure from those I always cherish, no longer find a comfort zone in a friendship. I hate to say this but I begin to think I have been overexcited myself for the last 10 months. All the excitement is decreasing dramatically in a flash after some incidents. I hate to think so but many evidence seem to direct me there. Oh God, what should I do?

• Three weeks in uni and assessment, assignment are already waiting in line for me. In class test, quizesssss. Fingers crossed I will survive for another 3 years in sydney!! xxxxxx

Something nice to smile about after the rants

Verrrrry nice Java Chip TomNcinno 

with my lost twin (birthdate) hehe

I hope one day I'll find my lost soulsister like these two *fingers crossed*

the breathtaking sydney view

:3