Today seemed to be a day to discover new people, as I had come across new friends and starting to understand their characteristics.
The most highlight would be on the new student at Sir Harkiman's.
My friends @Sir Harkiman's had just graduated from the 3rd year of senior high, and they're not coming for a lesson @ Sir Harkiman's anymore. They're probably busy planning for their college, or they are just being lazy. :p so Sir Harkiman agreed to accept new students and there came the first one today.
At first I thought she's probably around my age (well actually she is!), and she looked friendly. Well I figured she was a bit nervous when talking ( who don't at the first meeting?), but she was so calm. It has been quite a while since I last saw a very peaceful person like she was. Even when Sir Harkiman attacked her with questions about Christianity (he does it often to Christians), she still looked unoffensive. She had quite a good English too, and she's s m a r t. A few months with Sir Harkiman + hard work are so gonna improve her English. :)
I am thinking.. whether boys and girls can be just friends without having any special feeling towards one another? Because to be honest, I like to make friends with gentle boys. I want to be nice to them, but I just don't want them to have any special feeling towards me, and vice versa. You know, I think if we students can hold this kind of feeling during the serious learning years, and will just have that kind of feeling after graduating, isn't that better? I believe the young generations nowadays will then be (at least) a bit qualified, won't it? sigh, if only I have this kind of strength to hold myself for several years, too :/
anywayy, I have recently have a deep crush with Online Shops♥ seriously I had shopped in like 4 stores and I just can't waiiiiiiiitttt for the items to arrive :D I keep on hoping the item I ordered would be precisely like what the picture had shown. Isn't it one of the weaknesses of shopping online? :\
OH RIGHT, the weather here in Medan ( and probably in all parts of Indonesia) have been inconsistent recently. Some time the air can be so refreshing after drizzling all evening. ( like now) But some other days the air around the whole town was sultry after the scorching sun revealed itself for half a day. This is a worldly problem, for real. Also, not to mention the world's breaking news about the natural disasters in Asia and Europe (sigh this should make us be a lot more grateful). This world is seriously breaking down. =.="
PS, I have been an owl for these few days as I sleep at around one (a.m) and wake up at six thirty (a.m). And my right hand is in pain as I couldn't hold myself of going online every night :( GEE I really crave for more resting timeeeee! O.O
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
L I F E
You know, sometimes I am just too uncertain about things that I need obvious prove to be certain. But sometimes I just leave myself trying to figure out the answers because I can do nothing to prove it. and the thought of me of not able to do anything, of being so vulnerable, is what I hate the most.
Life's such a mystery. yes, a lot of people agree. The key to reveal the mystery is what I think life is mostly about. If you keep on repeating the same actions over and over everyday, I don't think you deserve this life. Life's absolutely much more than that. You experience things, you feel pain, you feel excited.. you feel alive.
I think there are times when we need to stop going forward and reminisce what we've done, what we've learned. But that doesn't really mean we should stop moving on. When we reminisce, when we feel what we once felt about life, no matter if it was painful or happy.. you also feel alive.
Although what I feel most now is an unbearable pain, this makes me alive too.
because I believe life is also a very tricky game. I may be lost this time, I may be hurt as I fall down, but there will also come the time when I win. After I've overcome the difficulties, after I am able to face the reality, after I am able to control my own self, I will win.
This is just the time when I need to stop and look back, and I did it yesterday. I found how much I had changed for the last two years. how I had turned from a simple young carefree girl into this mature self. I don't think I'm mature enough, but at least, I have progressed much already.
When I read on my past entries, I remembered how I thought and felt about life. It was always about the feeling when you've achieved something that would make me feel alive. but simply looking at my own reflection at the mirror now, I guess those things had faded in me.
so yes, I have come to a conclusion that life doesn't always mean to make you feel happy, and vice versa, life doesn't always mean to make you feel the pain. It's YOU who take control of all the things. On how you regard the obstacles as.
PS, This post may be a bit boring, or long-winded, but I think from reading this post may come the strength to encourage myself. I hope it comes to you too. :)
The path of life is never meant to be smooth. Sometimes, the small pebbles and the huge stones are just there on the crossroads.. to test your capability of turning to the other path, and to make you grow stronger.
Life's such a mystery. yes, a lot of people agree. The key to reveal the mystery is what I think life is mostly about. If you keep on repeating the same actions over and over everyday, I don't think you deserve this life. Life's absolutely much more than that. You experience things, you feel pain, you feel excited.. you feel alive.
I think there are times when we need to stop going forward and reminisce what we've done, what we've learned. But that doesn't really mean we should stop moving on. When we reminisce, when we feel what we once felt about life, no matter if it was painful or happy.. you also feel alive.
Although what I feel most now is an unbearable pain, this makes me alive too.
because I believe life is also a very tricky game. I may be lost this time, I may be hurt as I fall down, but there will also come the time when I win. After I've overcome the difficulties, after I am able to face the reality, after I am able to control my own self, I will win.
This is just the time when I need to stop and look back, and I did it yesterday. I found how much I had changed for the last two years. how I had turned from a simple young carefree girl into this mature self. I don't think I'm mature enough, but at least, I have progressed much already.
When I read on my past entries, I remembered how I thought and felt about life. It was always about the feeling when you've achieved something that would make me feel alive. but simply looking at my own reflection at the mirror now, I guess those things had faded in me.
so yes, I have come to a conclusion that life doesn't always mean to make you feel happy, and vice versa, life doesn't always mean to make you feel the pain. It's YOU who take control of all the things. On how you regard the obstacles as.
PS, This post may be a bit boring, or long-winded, but I think from reading this post may come the strength to encourage myself. I hope it comes to you too. :)
The path of life is never meant to be smooth. Sometimes, the small pebbles and the huge stones are just there on the crossroads.. to test your capability of turning to the other path, and to make you grow stronger.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Wednesday with ♥
I just realized this is gonna be the 100th post :D
I had much fun today! despite several things bother my afternoon but SHOPPING with my sunshine made it to replace those unnecessarily-thought stuffs :P
Well, I guess I had shopped (oh) too much and that means I should keep myself busy with other stuffs until next month or else the thought of wasting money would come up again LOL
But honestly, I had never believed such 'shopping therapy' worked before today. I've proven to myself that shopping could make me feel much better than I thought it would :)
at first I planned to go to Pieter's to have my bangs cut only, but I stopped by Gaudi and there I was with Karvina until the next hour :p I was actually planning to spend until I could make the Member Card as I tend to shop there most of the time. but then I found it unnecessary to push myself to shop that much as I don't really have many to my liking too. btw, here's are the great stuffs. Oh not to be forgotten a white rose necklace from Phoebe&Chloe ♥
I had much fun today! despite several things bother my afternoon but SHOPPING with my sunshine made it to replace those unnecessarily-thought stuffs :P
Well, I guess I had shopped (oh) too much and that means I should keep myself busy with other stuffs until next month or else the thought of wasting money would come up again LOL
But honestly, I had never believed such 'shopping therapy' worked before today. I've proven to myself that shopping could make me feel much better than I thought it would :)
at first I planned to go to Pieter's to have my bangs cut only, but I stopped by Gaudi and there I was with Karvina until the next hour :p I was actually planning to spend until I could make the Member Card as I tend to shop there most of the time. but then I found it unnecessary to push myself to shop that much as I don't really have many to my liking too. btw, here's are the great stuffs. Oh not to be forgotten a white rose necklace from Phoebe&Chloe ♥
I am in ♥ with this rosy necklace at the first sight. I felt I the urge to buy it as soon as I saw it from the distant ♥
PS, I bet you have NO idea how STRONG I've grown into all this time. yes, without YOU.
PS, I bet you have NO idea how STRONG I've grown into all this time. yes, without YOU.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
WHOOP-E-DOO-PEE-DOO
Anyonghasimnika, world? Winny Teh is finally back on blogging (again) :b
First monthly exam ended today and I couldn't be more relieved! it's ( no doubt) exhausting to store 2, 3 or even 4 chapters of knowledge into your brain for less than a day. It happened EVERY DAY for more than a week and I think I will soon going crazy for real.! well yeah, no one to be blamed, it's my lazy habit if there's one. :c
so yes, there's just sooooooooooo much i want to share, but I think I would just start with the most recent one(s) (:
I've recently been surveying on several things to buy before JUNE's holiday
♥a DSLR camera is the uppermost! I wouldn't want to leave Medan without my own one :p
I've laid my eyes on Canon 550D ever since I first saw about it, which was in the official canon website. and now I'm pretty much sure about it since I knew it doesn't cost as much as I thought it would. yipppie! :D
so I guess I need to start holding my crave for shopping if I really want to bring this into reality. sigh, it will not be as easy as written I know, as I recently have also been spying on cute clothes from Online Shops :(
but welllll, it's gonna worth them Teh kecik! Imagine the proud of being able to buy your own high-tech gadget with your own pocket money! well it's not my money i know, but at least my dad gave it to me and I save it myself :P I know this may not sound any special for some people, but it is for me. although this may only show a bit, I believe this will prove to my parents that their little daughter has grown up. and I am sick already of being thought as a little child and being treated like one who still knows nothing about this life. yeah, at least my own experiences had taught me some already.
so here's some things I bought today after watching 3D movie 'How To Train a Dragon' which was a superb one ♥
I decided to buy a very first book about photography as I am getting to be more interested with this hobby :) I also hope my photography skill will be able to balance with soon-gonna-be-mine 550D XDD
oh do you notice the Sponge Bob water bottle? I bought it at ACE Hardware, and it really cost a pretty penny :x but Larrisa recommended me to buy it before I regret it later HAHA she's such an evil =P
so yes, tomorrow school will start and end as usual. but then I hope my hyper-ultra-mega-giga lazy habit will changeeeee at least for a bit. To be kicked out from the plus class is totally unwelcome on my achievement list :(
PS, I'm beginning to love and get accustomed to the nickname 'Teh kecik' created by Ci Adriany as many of my friends have started to call me so ♥ ♥ :b
Thursday, April 01, 2010
I don't wanna be a FOOL, either.
April Fool's Day. I don't know if it has something to do with what makes today so full of unexpected things.
First, a friend of mine (i won't mention names) changed my shiny mood, into a cloudy one. actually she did nothing wrong, but just I felt dissapointed. sigh
Second, my driver. geez it's been a long time since I felt he's such an annoying one. what's so hard of trying to be less emotional when talking to meeeee? at least I didn't shout you first, you DID. after I'd waited for like half an hour, you arrived and you knew I was waiting but you didn't tell ME
you had arrived like in shit minutes ago? GRRRR
Third, myself. I've been so madddd at myself like how the hell did I let myself to pour out all the emotion at once? and I AM SO LAZY like EXAM IS IN LESS THAN 4 DAYS and what was i doing everyday?
The answers:
First, I was just hoping too much that I couldn't stand when she didn't act like the way I though she would. Which was why, I felt upset, not merely dissapointed.
Second, I should actually understand (even just a little) that the traffic to drive from Bulan to Bintang was like HELL in that time.
Third, I AM WAY TOO BAD-TEMPERED. EGOISTIC. AND CHILDISH. AND LAZY. SIGHH when can I totally CHANGE them? t.t
First, a friend of mine (i won't mention names) changed my shiny mood, into a cloudy one. actually she did nothing wrong, but just I felt dissapointed. sigh
Second, my driver. geez it's been a long time since I felt he's such an annoying one. what's so hard of trying to be less emotional when talking to meeeee? at least I didn't shout you first, you DID. after I'd waited for like half an hour, you arrived and you knew I was waiting but you didn't tell ME
you had arrived like in shit minutes ago? GRRRR
Third, myself. I've been so madddd at myself like how the hell did I let myself to pour out all the emotion at once? and I AM SO LAZY like EXAM IS IN LESS THAN 4 DAYS and what was i doing everyday?
The answers:
First, I was just hoping too much that I couldn't stand when she didn't act like the way I though she would. Which was why, I felt upset, not merely dissapointed.
Second, I should actually understand (even just a little) that the traffic to drive from Bulan to Bintang was like HELL in that time.
Third, I AM WAY TOO BAD-TEMPERED. EGOISTIC. AND CHILDISH. AND LAZY. SIGHH when can I totally CHANGE them? t.t
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