Midnight encounters

I'm furious.
Not at how things aren't on my side, but at how I always believe they are.
Not at how they have me fooled, but at how I'm always too delusional to see the truth.
Not at how they play tricks on me, but at how I got tricked more than once.

In the end I'm sad.
Because some things are not meant to be put faith in no matter what.
Because some things are never meant to change..
No matter how much I've always believed the otherwise.

Really (정말)

By Song Joong Ki

사랑했었잖아 정말
saranghessotjana jongmal
We were in love, really

좋아했었잖아 정말
joahessotjana jongmal
We liked each other, really

미칠 것 같아서 터질 것 같아서 정말
michil got gataso tojil got gataso jongmal
Felt like going crazy, felt like I’d burst, really

이제는 떠나자 다시
ijeneun ttonaja dasi
So let’s leave now again

니가 또 그리워 오늘도
niga tto geuriwo oneuldo
I miss you again today

가슴에 남아서 지울 수 없어서 정말
gaseume namaso jiul su obsoso jongmal
Because you remain in my heart and I can’t erase you, really,

이렇게도 아픈데 난
irokedo apeunde nan
I’m hurting like this


사랑해서 눈물이 난다 가슴이 아파 와서 또 눈물이 나
sarangheso nunmuri nanda gaseumi apa waso tto nunmuri na
Because I love you, tears fall
Because my heart hurts, tears fall again

다시 널 잃어버릴까 다시 잃어버릴까 내 두 눈이 너만 본다
dasi noriroborilkka dasi iroborilkka ne du nuni noman bonda
In case I lose you again, in case I lose you again
My two eyes only look at you

널 사랑하는 날 좀 바라봐
nol saranghaneun nal jom barabwa
Look at me, who loves you

이렇게 눈물이 나서 자꾸 눈물이 나서
iroke nunmuri naso jakku nunmuri naso
Because tears fall like this, because tears keep falling,

다시 살아도 또 다시 살아도 너야
dasi sarado tto dasi sarado noya
Even if I’m born again, even if I’m born again, it’s you



이별의 시작은 그렇게
ibyore sijageun geuroke
I said that I hate the start of goodbyes

싫다고 했는데 이렇게
siltago henneunde iroke


다시 사랑하면 널 그리워하면 정말
dasi saranghamyon nol geuriwohamyon jongmal
But if I love again, if I miss you, really,

돌아올 수 있겠니 난
doraol su itgenni nan
Can you come back?

사랑해서 눈물이 난다 가슴이 아파 와서 또 눈물이 나
sarangheso nunmuri nanda gaseumi apa waso tto nunmuri na
다시 널 잃어버릴까 다시 잃어버릴까 내 두 눈이 너만 본다
dasi noriroborilkka dasi iroborilkka ne du nuni noman bonda
널 사랑하는 날 좀 바라봐
nol saranghaneun nal jom barabwa
이렇게 눈물이 나서 자꾸 눈물이 나서
iroke nunmuri naso jakku nunmuri naso
다시 살아도 또 다시 살아도 너야
dasi sarado tto dasi sarado noya

너만 본다
noman bonda
I only see you

널 기다리고 기다리자나
nol gidarigo gidarijana
I’m waiting and waiting for you

혹시나 돌아올까봐 다시 돌아올까봐
hoksina doraolkkabwa dasi doraolkkabwa
In case you come back, in case you come back again

비를 맞아도 눈속을 걸어도
bireul majado nunsogeul gorodo
Even if I’m rained on, even if I walk in the snow

다시 또 살아도 오직 너야
dashi tto sarado ojing-noya
Even if I’m born again, it’s only you

xx

Little things that make my day

Loving today's findings <3 br="br"> Particularly smiling sillily at the last picture ;>

History of eating alone

It's a cold winter morning, but the sun hasn't shined any brighter than today. As usual, she's woken up midday..blaming the insomnia she had the night before. First thing in mind is 'what to eat?' cos apparently her stomach's been up all night playing the rock concert. In a second she notices no one's home, and no one is right to be invited for lunch. So she makes up her mind to dine in a nearby cafe, by herself.

It's lunchtime by the time she enters the cafe, and there's barely any table unoccupied. A lady by the door who dresses like a French maid widens her grin and kindly addresses her to one of the two-seats table. A menu is prepared on the table and the girl still has her insecure look on her eyes. After another lady who dresses similarly to the first one asks her what she'd like to have, she finally gives her an answer: a cup of white hot chocolate, and a plate of fried baby calamari. 

No one can tell but it's her first time dining alone. She had usually rather ordered takeaway, but this time she'd rather not. She begins observing people who come with their family, partner, or friends. Well, seems like dining alone isn't so popular these days. What goes through her mind is how sad she must have looked like right now. Maybe looking like a girl who is heartbroken. Or sitting and waiting for someone who never comes. You know what, the truth is, I don't think a single person in the room cares about her dining alone. Nor would they think she looks as sad as she thinks she looks like. The truth is, she doesn't look sad, she just feels so. 

What makes her sad is the fact that she'd rather eating alone in a lovely cafe than a call to invite her friends. And the fact that there is no one that seems right to call to. Then she begins to wonder, where have her best people gone? Who has she been meeting all this time? Well eating alone doesn't seem as bad as what she has thought, though. In fact she'd do it again sometimes. The only problem is, she feels bad because she'd rather not eating with anyone this time. As if she doesn't have any nice people around her to share a table and a chat with. Yes, that's probably the problem. 

Not long after her last thought, her order comes. Then she starts eating without thinking even a bit any more. Before her last bite of the meal, she finally realizes something..the answer. Then she's never felt more alone...in that moment of truth. 

Spotted

Sharing some of my favourite spotted today. Except for the pastries, and the Opera House view - oh and the Christmas tree- all of the artworks were displayed at Museum of Contemporary Art Australia! Look how amazing some of the artworks are.. Definitely one of the must-visit spots in Sydney for artists. The entry to the museum is FREE too, the government knows how to facilitate the city :)


Cheers,
Winny

What makes my day!

Hi everyone how did your day go? ;) Mine was very good (thank you for asking) in fact I'd like to share what have happened!

So first highlight was my dream last night -or morning you may say cos I slept at 3 am. I had the Korean actor Song Joong Ki in my dream (finally lol) !! I said finally cos I've been obsessing about him day and night since I start watching him as the lead in a most recent kdrama - The Innocent Man. I'm sure if you follow K-drama you must have heard about this one! I would recommend the drama to anyone who loves stories on revenge, betrayal and romance coming in a package. Another reason to watch is the lead male character is very well played. Frankly I'm going to make a confession here, his character is so my cup of tea!! <3

I'm going to warn you reader that what I'm about to say in my dream can sound so delusional, in fact you may not bear it. But I can't be more excited bcs that's what my dreams always are! :>
So Joong Ki was in there cos we just happened to meet ( through nowhere). Well in my dream me and him are like ordinary guy and girl getting to know each other and apparently (I'm so excited) I think we are starting to like each other too! We often meet cos he's staying in the same apartment as me, so the setting is either in the walkway to my unit or in my Apartment Club ( swimming pool, relaxing spots). I love how he seems like an ordinary guy meeting his crush (more like me meeting my crush) chatting the afternoon away, just having fun. His character in my dream was the shy and cool guy, but when it comes to things he is good at he becomes talkative and playful. Hehehe. Actually Michelle Phan ( a youtube beauty ) also appears and acts like his sister in it. She's the reason I could often meet him cos me and Michelle actually become close friends!

The best thing about my dream is I could feel for a while like I actually meet Joong Ki in person and can have any normal relationship like with ordinary guys I could make friends with. See how amazing is dreams cos they have no boundaries? ;p
The worst thing is that it is not real. So as soon as I open my eyes they all become unreal memories. Dream on you say? Oh well ;>

Proceed....second highlight of my day is when I read a few pages of a book. I'm not much of a reader it's what I've been pushing training myself to love. So yeah a productive moment makes me happy!

Third, which is the most grateful highlight of the day is the fact that I passed all the courses I took this semester!!! Yes the results have been released and finally greatest wish this month granted! Omg I am so so so thankful cos I (also) dreamed I failed a course, I'm so overjoyed this part of my dream isn't realised!

Final highlight of the day is watching the ARIAawards from TV where Taylor Swift performed 'I knew you were trouble'. She's amazing and adorable!!

To wrap up, I am just very grateful, happy, excited, of the events that have happened yesterday. I can really look back to this lengthy post and relive the memory especially the best which is the Joong Ki part (hehehe) :3
It's approaching 2 in the morning and I am not feeling really well which I think is the aftereffect of noming too much chips. Anyways I have plans for tomorrow I hope it'll be better. Hope you did have a good day and a better one tomorrow! Happy holidays everyone! ;>