Truth lies beneath the skin

Hiiii I'm in the midst of exam week. Tomorrow is Australia Day therefore is a public holiday. One last subject to go, the Legal monster. Have been group studying every single day with 'Indo kerenz' ( lol ) in Unilodge. Each day is a memorable one as I do not only earn knowledge of school subjects but also enrich my knowledge of social life. Particularly about PEOPLE.

Humans are so unique. Each one has distinct personality that when I get to know more, I'm often surprised myself.
I feel blessed meeting wonderful people during my studies here. From whom I can learn to live life more fully. Experience, their stories, and personalities results in me evaluating myself. And I often find I've never been good enough. Even though I used to think I have been.

I am looking forward to more days months years or even lifetime with them. I may not expect, but I hope. Because having genuine friends is one of the best things about life.... :')

Ban mal

Trust me, feelings can be grown. With time. With effort. With togetherness. The battle between my mind and heart can be quite terrifying. What is hoped is for the mind to win. Instead feelings overwhelm the atmosphere and whisper: "Give it a try. "

I am not to play with my feelings, e v e r a g a i n.

disentangling thoughts

Hello. This is gonna be a random post.
I've been listening to Christina perri's songs lately: Jar of Hearts and A thousand Years. Jar of Hearts reminded me of that time in my life, when the exact situation in the song, happened to me. But instead of a refusal, I gave a yes in response. A second chance.

I was grateful, during the journey, that I believed in second chances. The process was beautiful, every day was a fairy tale, only 'happily ever after' was not yet achieved. It's like the 'A thousand Years'. Until I was willing to give a LDR a try. But I failed, before the song even ends.


I am hoping there is gonna be a third song. I wanna know, I am curious about the
truth: Is this the end already? No I am not wishing for a next episode, I just want certainty. I hate having false hopes, like I have just had. Cause in the end, the truth always left me speechless.

I don't know what's wrong in me. Or is it really me?
I hate the fact that I feel into the deep hole with someone, but in the end I have to climb out of it myself. I'm not regretting though, cause I know I'll learn from it.

I am not in a state of confusion, nor in the brink of doubts. Sometimes I just need to describe my thoughts into words. No answer needed, no replies necessary. Only now, my thoughts have come crystal clearer. This post has helped me through understanding.

End of story.

January ardor

Hey ho how's your start of week fellas? Mine couldn't get any better ;)
Been (trying) making myself busy to revise every spare time I have, and pause watching Running man for a while now. I need a serious catch up on revisions.
Indo friends here have been discussing plans for our one-week holidays. Exciting fun revenge after exams lol

This month's agenda is surely gonna be busyyyy! :)

Anugerah ( Blessing )

Mother's Day

Current reading:

Hi again! How has the new year treated you so far? I'm back to foundation, alrd. Exam is just around the corner but I can't stop slacking every single day by... watching Running Man. I'm seriously like taking drugs, only I never feel overdose.

It's good to be back to school. I have things to make me busy, meeting friends, getting rid of loneliness. Recently I've read tweets from my following which is about #galauproduktif. Basically it's tlaking about those productive things or ideas created during our 'mixed-up' period. Apparently quite a number of tweeps have shared their experience, and I was quite surprised. Majority of them admitted to write short stories during that period and ended up being published in magazine or even received an award! WOW. @MencobaBelajar also tweeted that the energy released during that 'mind hubbub' period is surprisingly significant and therefore is better to be used efficiently. Ever since knowing that I think I'd give it a try next time that state of mind appears again. By dancing or doodling maybe? Well who knows my art talent which is hiding decides to appear. LOL

Hi 2012!

Hows your New Year celebrations, readers? Did you welcome New Year with an open heart? :)
Mine was nothing special except I've got to spend it with sisters and Mom, although it's too bad Dad had to leave early. Oh did I mention mom and dad came over roughly 24 days ago? The main reason was to help us move. What could we do without them!

Anyways before I mention anything else, I'd like to have a moment of self-reflect toward the previous year, 2011.
2011 has overall been...magnificent. It was the year I graduated from high school. One of possibly most important decisions made in my life, pursuing my studies overseas. A year of laughters, happiness, much tears, heartbreak. It was the year I gave love another go, and the same year I gotta let my love go. The year I learn to cherish more of each moment, because nothing lasts forever. The year I live thousands of miles apart from where I call home. The year I was separated by distance with the people I love. I'm astonished by how fast a year can pass yet how many things can change during the time. In the end, I've tried to learn to once again, let go, and move on..and on..and on.
"Don't look back, yet." I tell myself. "Keep yourself busy making things happen, growing up, learn from mistakes, and problems." My biggest wish now is that one day, whenever that is, when I look back, my heart smiles.

2012 here we are. Again, I survived another year. One message to 2012: Surprise me again!