Treat me right, 2011

Hello again!
Can you believe it's that time of the year already? 2011 will soon come to an end!

How has 2011 treated you? ;)
It has been treating me awesomely good! I'm utterly grateful nothing horrible has happened throughout the year! Can't thank the Buddha enough for the blessings to me and family.


These 345 days I proudly say I have not just grown older, but more mature. Coming here, far away from home is truly an eye-opener. I am able to not cling to the past, instead live in the present, aim for the future.

Some things still need to be fixed, though.
Since I used to live on my own for 4 years, now I have to adapt to living with my sisters.
I didn't know living by my own could change my attitude so much, for real. For those 4 years, I needn't think about the others. I woke up by myself, went home from school by myself, played by myself, ate sometimes by myself, and finally slept by myself. The world revolves around me only.

But it's different now. The world just doesn't revolve around me only anymore.
I woke up with sister by my side. Dinner sometimes with them. Shared stories with them. Slept with a sister.



How does it differ, you ask?
Since I had been living like I am the only child, I became more selfish. It just occurred spontaneously, unexpected. All I had to do was to mind my own business. Buy my own things. Play by my own. But that attitude should not be carried here. Not if I live with my family. True, not?

Apart from that lesson, this year has taught me many many many others. I hope the same goes to you guys too! Have a fabulous closing of the year everyone! Merry early Christmas! Enjoy the festive season of the year :D

Beyond limits

Hi. Foundi life's treatin me very goooood.
After presenting the three hellish subjects in a week, I feel much much much relieved.
I did pretty well, if I am to give myself a comment. At least, I did my best.

English was a total satisfaction. A star man! Like for real?! Well I did not achieve it easily. Hard work and effort for 4 or 5 whole days, racking my brain for the most sensible summary of the article.
Econs was great. Presenting with a cooperative partner from Medan! A as a result, 'cause the teacher has never given more than that. He thinks A is the highest score. So yeah .... :)

Legal was...... disaster, at first. Can you imagine when you only have 4 days left before the D-day, and you only accept prefect result, yet you have not started at all?! I was freaaaaaaaaaaking out. Realizing I had that small amount of time to work on it simply freaked me out. I tried to understand the question first, then thought of how to start. The reference material was half a lecture note and some others from Supplementary Materials. I simply couldn't calm myself down. I thought I had too much work from the other two presentations and I was so tired when it came to Legal's. I panicked, I cried hysterically. Thinking how it was so hard for me to cope to the stressful foundation life. I had almost given up. Until I reminded myself the reason I came here. I've come this far and there's no way back. With the help of my eldest sister and my friend, I managed to eventually work it out.
A minus was a suitable result, I think. The teacher has never given A to anyone yet, so far. He said mine was a little bit less to get an A. Can't be happier.


Overall, through the presentations, I've learned to reach beyond my limits. Who knows this little young lady who has never done a solo presentation can achieve this satisfying result with 3 consecutive presentations in a week? Well done, little young lady! ;)

Patience is (NOT) virtue

Dear diary,
I miss home too much. Feels like everyone is going back home for holidays and spend 2 or 3 months for it.

While in my case... I have to wait til next June, at least.
Some of my classmates are not even away from hometown for half a year, yet going to spend 2 months (at the most) in Medan from this December? UNFAIR.
Yeah of course I've had 5 months of holidays before coming here BUT I was almost getting sick of it back then but I desperately need it for next month!
Of course I'm gonna have holidays this December, for two weeks.
Since coming here, I need to struggle for 9 months first before I can go back for 1 month at the most(!) next June. How UNFAIR is that?!


What's more unfair is most of my indo peers here are going back to their hometown as well! *envytothemax* One last thing is that there will be VOC reunion in the coming JANUARY!

OK SHOOT ME NOW.

hot chocolate and mint: Words

hot chocolate and mint: Words: I noticed something today. That some people, enjoy killing other people's dreams, or visions. Although unintentionally, they actually do through their very few words and innocent faces. We shouldn't sweat the small things, but small words, we should. Words carry real meanings, hence the presence of dictionaries. Never think that words are just words. They really affect one's world.

And words can also cure. They can be the birth of life-impacting innovations, of big changes for the world. The impossible and possible happen from a mindset. And mindsets, are developed through the words we speak and we tell to ourselves. When others speak about impossibility, I prefer closing my ears. When I believe, I believe. Have faith, friends..:)

Undercover

Dear diary,
Today I realized in life I can't always meet people who are doing right things. Sometimes others just want to cross out from their comfort zone, have a once-in-a-lifetime experience. Although I doubt it only happens once.

Today I also found out feelings are not to be played with. Sometimes, just sometimes, I try to make myself fall in love when in fact I know it's not right. If you force yourself to fall, it's not love, is it?
Somehow I just hope I am the master of my feeling so I can command it. Not another way round.


I really wish right now there isn't anything bothering me with my studies. 'cos I've traveled this far, made life-changing decisions, not for nothing. FOCUS and PROCRASTINATION has always been my biggest enemies. Sigh I know if I keep on pushing myself, a part of me is just way too rebellion to listen. But...this is what I hope. Motivation is all I need. Fingers crossed x


PS, Just realized I've written 190 posts so far and had 19 followers!

Sydney, I'm quite in love

Hi, I'm tired.
I love weekends most for I can have fun without feeling guilty. I know right, I don't come here just to have fun...it's just...I need one or two weekends between weekdays. :(
 Next week I'm gonna present 3 times on 3 different subjects. I am quite a perfectionist in some cases. I don't like things that are well planned become disorder. Therefore, I am trying to prepare the best I can.

I'm sure I've written that foundi life is hard. In terms of friendship, though, I find a number of supportive as well as encouraging friends. Most of my close ones are from Indonesia. Ranging from one year younger to one year older than I. Somehow there is still something missing. I need to find out what exactly it is.

Yesterday was a heart throbbing. After all this time, the words finally came out. I didn't know how to react, or to feel from that moment onwards..It was surprising, touching, yet unbelievable. How long is it gonna last? Is it only temporary emotional speak out? 4 years to find out.