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Hi again! How has the new year treated you so far? I'm back to foundation, alrd. Exam is just around the corner but I can't stop slacking every single day by... watching Running Man. I'm seriously like taking drugs, only I never feel overdose.

It's good to be back to school. I have things to make me busy, meeting friends, getting rid of loneliness. Recently I've read tweets from my following which is about #galauproduktif. Basically it's tlaking about those productive things or ideas created during our 'mixed-up' period. Apparently quite a number of tweeps have shared their experience, and I was quite surprised. Majority of them admitted to write short stories during that period and ended up being published in magazine or even received an award! WOW. @MencobaBelajar also tweeted that the energy released during that 'mind hubbub' period is surprisingly significant and therefore is better to be used efficiently. Ever since knowing that I think I'd give it a try next time that state of mind appears again. By dancing or doodling maybe? Well who knows my art talent which is hiding decides to appear. LOL

Hi 2012!

Hows your New Year celebrations, readers? Did you welcome New Year with an open heart? :)
Mine was nothing special except I've got to spend it with sisters and Mom, although it's too bad Dad had to leave early. Oh did I mention mom and dad came over roughly 24 days ago? The main reason was to help us move. What could we do without them!

Anyways before I mention anything else, I'd like to have a moment of self-reflect toward the previous year, 2011.
2011 has overall been...magnificent. It was the year I graduated from high school. One of possibly most important decisions made in my life, pursuing my studies overseas. A year of laughters, happiness, much tears, heartbreak. It was the year I gave love another go, and the same year I gotta let my love go. The year I learn to cherish more of each moment, because nothing lasts forever. The year I live thousands of miles apart from where I call home. The year I was separated by distance with the people I love. I'm astonished by how fast a year can pass yet how many things can change during the time. In the end, I've tried to learn to once again, let go, and move on..and on..and on.
"Don't look back, yet." I tell myself. "Keep yourself busy making things happen, growing up, learn from mistakes, and problems." My biggest wish now is that one day, whenever that is, when I look back, my heart smiles.

2012 here we are. Again, I survived another year. One message to 2012: Surprise me again!

Treat me right, 2011

Hello again!
Can you believe it's that time of the year already? 2011 will soon come to an end!

How has 2011 treated you? ;)
It has been treating me awesomely good! I'm utterly grateful nothing horrible has happened throughout the year! Can't thank the Buddha enough for the blessings to me and family.


These 345 days I proudly say I have not just grown older, but more mature. Coming here, far away from home is truly an eye-opener. I am able to not cling to the past, instead live in the present, aim for the future.

Some things still need to be fixed, though.
Since I used to live on my own for 4 years, now I have to adapt to living with my sisters.
I didn't know living by my own could change my attitude so much, for real. For those 4 years, I needn't think about the others. I woke up by myself, went home from school by myself, played by myself, ate sometimes by myself, and finally slept by myself. The world revolves around me only.

But it's different now. The world just doesn't revolve around me only anymore.
I woke up with sister by my side. Dinner sometimes with them. Shared stories with them. Slept with a sister.



How does it differ, you ask?
Since I had been living like I am the only child, I became more selfish. It just occurred spontaneously, unexpected. All I had to do was to mind my own business. Buy my own things. Play by my own. But that attitude should not be carried here. Not if I live with my family. True, not?

Apart from that lesson, this year has taught me many many many others. I hope the same goes to you guys too! Have a fabulous closing of the year everyone! Merry early Christmas! Enjoy the festive season of the year :D

Beyond limits

Hi. Foundi life's treatin me very goooood.
After presenting the three hellish subjects in a week, I feel much much much relieved.
I did pretty well, if I am to give myself a comment. At least, I did my best.

English was a total satisfaction. A star man! Like for real?! Well I did not achieve it easily. Hard work and effort for 4 or 5 whole days, racking my brain for the most sensible summary of the article.
Econs was great. Presenting with a cooperative partner from Medan! A as a result, 'cause the teacher has never given more than that. He thinks A is the highest score. So yeah .... :)

Legal was...... disaster, at first. Can you imagine when you only have 4 days left before the D-day, and you only accept prefect result, yet you have not started at all?! I was freaaaaaaaaaaking out. Realizing I had that small amount of time to work on it simply freaked me out. I tried to understand the question first, then thought of how to start. The reference material was half a lecture note and some others from Supplementary Materials. I simply couldn't calm myself down. I thought I had too much work from the other two presentations and I was so tired when it came to Legal's. I panicked, I cried hysterically. Thinking how it was so hard for me to cope to the stressful foundation life. I had almost given up. Until I reminded myself the reason I came here. I've come this far and there's no way back. With the help of my eldest sister and my friend, I managed to eventually work it out.
A minus was a suitable result, I think. The teacher has never given A to anyone yet, so far. He said mine was a little bit less to get an A. Can't be happier.


Overall, through the presentations, I've learned to reach beyond my limits. Who knows this little young lady who has never done a solo presentation can achieve this satisfying result with 3 consecutive presentations in a week? Well done, little young lady! ;)

Patience is (NOT) virtue

Dear diary,
I miss home too much. Feels like everyone is going back home for holidays and spend 2 or 3 months for it.

While in my case... I have to wait til next June, at least.
Some of my classmates are not even away from hometown for half a year, yet going to spend 2 months (at the most) in Medan from this December? UNFAIR.
Yeah of course I've had 5 months of holidays before coming here BUT I was almost getting sick of it back then but I desperately need it for next month!
Of course I'm gonna have holidays this December, for two weeks.
Since coming here, I need to struggle for 9 months first before I can go back for 1 month at the most(!) next June. How UNFAIR is that?!


What's more unfair is most of my indo peers here are going back to their hometown as well! *envytothemax* One last thing is that there will be VOC reunion in the coming JANUARY!

OK SHOOT ME NOW.

hot chocolate and mint: Words

hot chocolate and mint: Words: I noticed something today. That some people, enjoy killing other people's dreams, or visions. Although unintentionally, they actually do through their very few words and innocent faces. We shouldn't sweat the small things, but small words, we should. Words carry real meanings, hence the presence of dictionaries. Never think that words are just words. They really affect one's world.

And words can also cure. They can be the birth of life-impacting innovations, of big changes for the world. The impossible and possible happen from a mindset. And mindsets, are developed through the words we speak and we tell to ourselves. When others speak about impossibility, I prefer closing my ears. When I believe, I believe. Have faith, friends..:)