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hey-lo! it's the middle of the week, and so far how has this week been treating you guys? :D
Today was the busiest day, in a while! I went to campus at 10.30 and got home at 4-4.30 then went out again for a non-campus activities and reached home at 9.30! yet before I did anything ( productive/useful cos I've only been slacking ) it's now already past midnight and I gotta sleep soon to wake up early for a lecture tomorrow! yeah it's one of those days, i know....

Anyways, remember that I mentioned in the last post how I have all these workloads? It'll hopefully be less heavier by next week yay! I'm so looking forward to the end of this month to see if I managed to get this one huge workload thing done! I'll update more about it when it's time... hehe ;)

I guess that's all I'd like to say for now, have a productive & happy days for the rest of the week guys! <3 p="">

signing off,

Bali 2012

Signing in simply to mark my attendance on the blog!

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just kidding. 

This is probably the umpteenth time I clarify myself why I am absent for so long, and yes for the umpteenth time the answer is still university commitment. 

I am currently in the middle of assignments(sssssssssss) + test + off-campus work to the point that I decide to postpone it all to share about it in the cyber world. I can't believe one month has flown just like that. I know it's probably due to the abundant work that I lose count of dates. Too much (as always) have been going on that I can't share my day-to-day activities - I'll probably bore you with my vent on days dealing with monstersssignments.

I have met with many wonderful people lately and I'd like to think about that; which every now and then interferes with my studies. I'd like to think about how the short future would look like and that it'd be great if I could see it coming sooner. I have made mistakes in life, at least one each day, and after all happenings in the past, I'm afraid to make new one..not on this field.

So maybe every once in a while, can you remind me?

Until the next post,
thelittleteh

What happened during Easter

He-llo!

The past five days of Easter break have been about a (mental) visit to my hometown. The reason being a hometown friend from Melbourne flew over the state and came for a food, places, and people trip; in which I was in the role of being both the trip guide and companion. I call it a mental visit to my hometown (I am physically here) mainly because most of the people she and I hang out with during her stay were hometown friends, therefore hometown memories and stories are revisited and shared.

It was not long ago -barely a month- since I last returned from my stay in hometown for summer holidays, and I have set my focus back to the university life I have here instead of constantly recalling the holiday mood. But these days during her stay I've been not only updated with the current life stories of my hometown people, but also reminiscing the past blue and bright days my life was once filled with. Nostalgia should explain the event well; which also occurs to me now that it has become my new favourite hobby. Coining from how Tavi Gevinson defines the term: This is when the act of remembering an event becomes more enjoyable than the event itself, conjuring feelings that are warm and fuzzy, but also painful in the best way.

I have a habit of examining why/what makes the feeling of the after-effect of an event, or in other words what makes me feel gloomy, happy, sad, all the emotions during the happening of an event or after the event has ended. The positive emotions I have felt the past few days must be the result of the event of togetherness I have lost contact with for a while. Moreover the people I met up with belonged to some pages in my high school chapters.. even the Melbournian herself. It took me one night to open up the chapters in the previous two books (years), and without doubt the most-filled chapters in my life.

To sum up, I have finished my Easter tour around Sydney as my friend has left the town this early morning. And I sure hope she had a whale of time like I did with her and other companions.

Taken in Darling Harbour

Honey butter bread

Thai food goodness

Seafood galore

Best known pork ribs in town

The devil's delight lives up to its name. @ Pancakes on The Rocks

Deep fried MARS -chocolate- bar!

Overlooking the Sydney Tower

Until next guilty pleasure post,

Winny Teh x

Still figuring it out.

Hello there!

How have you blogwalkers been doing?

Today I've decided to share the reasons behind blogging, and most of the random gloominess, rants....since I decide to take blogging more seriously :)

They say if you don't know who the writer is, you may not be bothered to read. And I'd like to be my honest self when writing..so I'm going to start by introducing the writer who's responsible for all the contents in this blog...me!

My name is Winny Teh - if you haven't already known. I'm currently pursuing my tertiary education in one of the best cities to live in (according to me) - Sydney, Australia. My first language is not English, but I'm very keen to learn to improve..so please bear with me :p

In terms of attitudes, I'm as stiff as my physical self. I take things very seriously sometimes hehehe.
I think I'm almost always either thinking or daydreaming! Before writing, I have been thinking how to write this post for quite some time :p

I tend to keep things to myself, but I've decided to loosen up a little since I realise I may be missing out a lot in life- particularly teenage life! :)

I think it has been my lifelong desire to not think about the reactions, responses I may get from doing this or that.. about what I expect others to do, and what they expect from me. Uhm to put it simple, I hope to be a more honest to myself, and to live the present to the most; carpe diem!

Next thing I'd like to share is what I'm always struggling with: being a part of the society. Although I'm very interested, I don't know what people think about me. I never do. Have people been keeping it to themselves, or am I the one being too insensitive to not realise anything? hehehe 

Maybe this explains my uncertain behaviour towards other people.. or why I almost always don't know what to do, what to focus on. 

My random and depressing blog posts are usually due to my outburst since I was not able to directly tell the target reader about what I really want to say.. or simply because I am dissatisfied about certain things and I really feel about saying it, but don't feel like talking to anyone. I feel sorry for those who happened to read my rants during those periods :S

At the moment, the reason that motivates me to blog is to share.. whether they are thoughts, ideas, moments, inspirations, or simply random happenings. I am inspired by many wonderful bloggers out there through their thoughts and writings. I'd like to do something with my blog too! :)

When I am asked about my dreams, what I want to become.. I don't know what to answer. It's not like I don't think about the future, I think it's more like I am not sure. Sometimes I think I'm as lost as Alice-when she first entered the wonderland- when it comes to answering those kinds of questions :b

I think that someday..maybe I'll know the answers to the hundreds of questions I have. Maybe I'll grow wiser and realise about more things. Or maybe I'll live life differently from the way I do now.

But right now, despite things I've come to understand about life, I'm still figuring it out. 

Much love, 

littleteh x

Part 1 1/2

Often we misunderstand the feeling of yearning with wanting. No it's different. Cos as much as we wish for the situation to be the same, it never will be. The people in the picture taken ages ago change. The moment is impossible to be exactly replayed. (Yes I say impossible.) What's passed is past. That's why moments become memories. Lovers become strangers. Enemies become friends. Time. Could. Change. Everything. (learn this)

New spirit

Hello.
First of all, Happy warm New Year! :)
Where are you starting the New Year in?

As for myself, I have finally landed on my hometown again after having been gone for 6 months. It feels so good to be in the same town with the family and friends, the place where I used to spend 3/4 of each year in.. the place I often call Home :)

Does New Year have a particular meaning to you? For me New Year represents a fresh new start, and a time to change to another life-book. (yes I believe a lifetime means a group of books) And it's up to us what stories we want to write in. Maybe some things remain the way they are from last year. Maybe some others need to be redefined, and maybe the rest just needs to end.

What I'm about to share is the things that need to end. for me.

I'm actually that kind of person who when things get rough, like to look back and reminisce the old good times. High school years have the most happenings I can hardly forget til the present times. Sometimes I long for the friendship bond I had back then with my classmates, or the school-tuition-home-tuition routine that I took for granted, or the anticipation of meeting the same friends in the same class each morning I arrived at school. Yes all of those little events that always dance around in my memories.. good old times they are. ;)

Now for the parts -I guess I prefer to say- letting go.

The grudges I've hold since I left high school.
The people whom I cherished sincerely, whom I put faith in, but whom I feel betrayed from.. I probably won't be as strong as I am today without all those challenges. Thank you
Last but not least, to the good old memories I've been trying to relive. I've made a mistake by trying to walk backwards. All I get is nothing but pain. 

I forgive and let go..

May from this moment onwards I acquire the skills to prioritise professionally. If not for the sake of a clear future, for the sake of a happier me. xoxo

PS, This is my way to detoxify my mind, maybe you have yours! Nevertheless, for this New Year, try to eliminate the negative things by gradually filling in the positive ones..  it's easier to do it now that you still have the new year spirit, for a fresh new start!


Good luck,