will you will i will we

There will always be that time in life where nothing seems to fall into place. When nothing seems satisfying, or right to begin with. In my life this time happens occasionally, and it is now.

To me, strengths and weaknesses are part of a person, also form a person. So when I think I lose one of my greatest - or shall I say proudest - strength, I instantly feel crap. I would start thinking of how disappointing I will be to my proud mental and financial sponsors ( mom and dad and close friends), and the more I go into that the more I build the pressure...for myself.

During this point of time I usually will attempt to seek solutions if not from my own ideas, from those I think might be helpful. Once in a while, I try to simply let loose of control by underestimating the situation. Trying to zoom out from my position to find I am merely in a piece in the big puzzle. This rule would repeat itself at times of desperate moment and one kind listener is all I need as the catalyst to the healing.

However, this other thing bugging me is no-brainer. In the sense that logic can't stand alone, if to get rid of it. This is probably one of the reasons why some people, me including, are not a fan of associating feelings when mingling, and may seem more like defending, holding, inside. The fear of things not going to end in our favour is probably more like why. No solution yet, no idea how the path will look like. But I'll stay around the corner of the field, just in time when the game needs a little twist.

As for now, I aim to strive for excellence in kicking final's *ss! 

and as long as we keep believing, there is hope. xx

cheers,

littlemissteh

the place beyond the pines

..because if I have come to enjoy myself, and just being with myself, nothing else can be so big a deal anymore.

counting stars

what happened in-between mugging.

because drawing on the paper is too mainstream.

#writingonhand

"everything that hurts me makes me feel alive. "

oo, littlemissteh

Churros me up

Supposed to cheer me through my struggle of completing assignment.

PS, shall do this often. Remember final's coming soon?

PPS, happy now? LOL 

a dollar for every smile

Today I will share a story about my struggle in the past.
When I was 15, one private tuition teacher I hold dear most once told me that a relationship is not worth the fight, if it sacrifices the trust of whose I needed to be able to survive life. I think just like how in economics is explained, the opportunity costs of an action is large...firms or in this case I, need to prioritize. She taught me that the feeling of affection, desire that we feel strongly at one moment, could end in the short run..therefore the permanent lose of trust is not worth the temporary passion. She even brought with her some real-life examples to prove her point. And in the end, despite her influence and persuasion, I neglected her advice. Rebellion was my probably middle name (who knows if it still is) or at that time it was just me trying to take risks in my life.. high, uncountable ones.

"The reason so many people find it so hard to be happy, is that they will always see:

The past better than it was;

The present worse than it is;

and the future less resolved than it will be. " 

-anonymous.

As I am sitting and typing this post in my dining table now, looking back to that day, if I am to say I didn't wish things were different, I lie. However, the only moment I am capable of controlling, is not ones back in the days but here in the present. If I were to live in deep regrets, some time in my life would have been wasted...unrepeatable moments, chances of something better would have been missed.. don't you agree? Therefore this logic is what have been keeping me going, surviving to this day.

Do you know the scary thing of having passed through an event in life that has played me emotionally...? Is that I no longer play in the game with as high bet as I did once before. Taking into accounts the potential damages that could reiterate, let alone the loss that could not be repaid.

Today, I stand back from the battlefield. I give ground.

Ever since the day it all ended, I swore I would be more open. To other chances, other opportunities that were knocking on my door but I missed out...and to seek the ones that are worth the pursue.

I personally say I have now travelled far...meeting wonderful people along the way, encountered remarkable stories of my kind. My mind and eyes are more opened..each day I become the wisest I could ever be.

So one question, if I could tell my previous self what to do, what would it be?

Lucky is I have gone through that essential phase in life. My advice won't be to my old self, but to my now self, is that to do what I have been doing: to be in the battlefield only if I think the sacrifices will be worth it, to pursue only if the circumstances. And how would I know that? When the moment comes, I believe I just know. At least I hope so.

New Zealand 2012

signing off,
thelittleteh x

my cup of tea x

so excited that this lovely has finally arrived to my doorstep couple days ago! it was serious love at first sight {3 and next thing I realised it's already on my wish list... moving on to the shopping cart! hehehe 

I haven't really experimented with all the features therefore no complete reviews yet. However, this PentaxQ10 is a compact system camera ( in fact, the world's smallest of its kind ) with interchangeable lenses and so far it hasn't let me down with its 02 standard 5-15 mm f 2.8-4.5 zoom lenses. There's so many combinations of colours for the body and grip to choose from! I spent hours contemplating for either white-gold or pink-gold.. and ended up succumbing to the fav colour from childhood. Now looking at the appearance itself is already enough to excite me to take millions of good pictures!!!! :p

Hope you all have a good Sunday... Signing off to continue my study!

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Until next procrastination,

winnyteh x