You'll know when it's time, they say.

Hello abandoned blog.

Too much has happened since I last updated. Anyways am currently (tryna make myself) busy working on essay due next week and preparing for the upcoming final exam. Dang can't believe the end of foundation is approaching soon. All these 9 months of hardwork will be determined by the results released in June.

Apart from foundi life, there's some others happening. Well well what else can it be other than social life!
Changes are inevitable I see, and I can only pray those will lead us to a tighter bond than ever. Honestly, in social life perspective, I don't know whether to fear or look forward to uni life. Will things ever be the same? Will our friendship stand the test of time? I myself would love to ensure the answer to be yes. But there's this doubt, than only time can prove. Fingers crossed!

24.03

Today was quite a happy day! Shopped by myself before attending glo's bday dinner. Found a number of stuffs worth the penny! ☺

Have been pondering about the same stuff lately. For a couple of weeks now. Will things ever be the same in another couple of weeks? How will life be when foundation course ends? It's like I am not allowed to settle in a comfort zone for too long. Not in life, I guess.

Sharing some random pictures taken lately:

Indecisive

Today's highlights:
• Gloria's birthday! 

• Non-assessable maths test

• Sweared by some lunatic perv just bcs I don't give a damn on his existence. Too bad, jerk 

• Tried Chatime's Blue Mountain Green Tea and not liking it.

• Catering's not as mouth-watering as usual.

• Still find myself in a perplexed state.

Hi. Brain is still messed up. Mood is still swinging.


























Bye.

A post

Sometimes I wish.. I am not so sensitive. or moody. Not to be easily affected by actions from people I care, when they treat me less right, less kind.
Recently mood swings have been way up and next moment way down. There seems to be lesser and lesser reasons to have a steady mood. Either I'm not quite satisfied with the present, or I'm grateful.

Funny how humans seem to have no control over their own life. Anything could change any time. I hate it, truly. So sick of having to rely on someone else, be it family, or friends, to be the source of my own happiness. If something just goes wrong, the next thing I know I'd be blaming the nature of life again.

One of the reasons I've been blogging less lately is mainly because I don't want to blame or complain or bother to describe what I'm going through lately. To me, a post is a bit like an evaluation. If I happen to be going through hard times, a post could either relieve my burden or make it worse cause I should face the bitter truth. So yeah, let's call this a post.

Was

The fact that I'm quite over it already sometimes surprises myself.

This morning felt like a long morning. For a while some pieces I've left behind came again as if asking me to spare some room for them in my current life. All I asked was to let me move on with my life, why does it seem to be too much?

I believe things ended for a reason. And for me, that is to let me have another new beginning. Since I came here, I have decided to open myself to new opportunities, new possibilities, new friends, new experience, something different from my past. I don't deny the fact that the past is when I once felt the happiest I could ever be. It's just to now, those are the PAST. It is a beautiful place to visit, but I don't hope to stay there anymore, let alone re-live it. It may be easier for me since I've actually lived 4000 miles apart from the places and people that may remind me of the past. But it's not a reason for you to not let go.

Wrong perception it is, if it's saying I've moved on from the life in my hometown. I still talk to my close friends there, I still have my favorite food there, and occasionally, I miss the atmosphere. I simply decided to let go of the things which used to fill a huge part of my life. To no longer take heed of the things which used to affect me so much. To close my heart for the old things, and open for other new ones. In short, to m o v e o n.

I hope this is enough to clarify all the thoughts wondered. Never do I intend to hurt anyone who was important to me. What I'm doing is just letting life flows. I have no idea what the future is going to be, thus I can only do my best for now.

Cheers,